maidendeth
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my family is fighting. at the worst possible time. my mom has cancer and just got out of the hospital two days ago, she doesnt need to be dealing with us (my sisters and I) fighting too. My mom hides stuff from me, like how shes feeling or what doctors told her. I dont know why but then itll come back around and bite me in the ass, like today. I talked to my mom when she got out, she said she was fine. I shouldve called these past days but Im having a hard time dealing with everything, and I have the worst habit of cutting myself off from everyone when stuff like this is going on. Im not as close to my mother as I'd like so it always feels like Im bothering her. Well today my sister asked me to stay with my mother tonight and tomorrow, ok no problem. I ask how shes doing and she tells me my moms starting to get confused and act funny. I ask her how long this has been happening and she says since shes got out of the hospital. This is where I know I shouldve called and I start to feel horrible. But then she starts saying she's the only one whos been with my mom these past two days and how me and my other sister dont want to do anything. excuse me? im angry now. "how come you didnt call me when this started to happen? how come you took it upon yourself to do everything? how do you know nobody wanted to help when you dont even pick up the phone to let me know these things?" I shouldve called I know. But still, how is she going to say these things, she knows they're not true. She cusses me out and hangs up before I could even finish the last sentence. I try to call back, she ignores my call. I talk to my other sister and she talked to my mom (i was a sobbing mess by now and wanted to calm down before i spoke to my mom). She tells me my mom had been wanting me there but my sister pretty much shut down the idea, saying why does my mom want me there all of a sudden. Why is she acting like that? Like she wants to care for my mother all on her own, but then lash out at us for it. Im so upset, I just want to run away somewhere, but thats not logical, not to mention incredibly selfish.