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SophiaGrace
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So, after a caffeine pill or two I am thinking and talking a lot, but it's almost 3 am and I have no one to talk to.
But, today I was reading this book and i was reading the chapter on Poverty and Depression, and it mentioned a woman who would not respond to her therapist, when the therapist called her, and would not refill her psychiatric prescriptions. The last comment about this woman went to this effect " that her actions were caused by passivity learned from a lifetime of abuse."
and that made me stop and think. "Passivity...from abuse?" and i think about all the softspoken, apologetic, low self esteem women I have met that were abused, and it made sense. Then i thought about myself, and how I have a pretty "laid back", passive, at times (learned helplessness) sort of nature. and it again made sense.
to be quiet growing up was my way of escaping notice, to minimize any abuse towards myself. I had to be taught by my first boyfriend to have opinions and be assertive. I literally, at 14 years of age, had no opinions of my own whatsoever. I just agreed with whatever he (my boyfriend) said. no concept of self, which is pretty bad. I also am bad at returning phone calls and emails.
I dunno. Just writing down thoughts.
But, today I was reading this book and i was reading the chapter on Poverty and Depression, and it mentioned a woman who would not respond to her therapist, when the therapist called her, and would not refill her psychiatric prescriptions. The last comment about this woman went to this effect " that her actions were caused by passivity learned from a lifetime of abuse."
and that made me stop and think. "Passivity...from abuse?" and i think about all the softspoken, apologetic, low self esteem women I have met that were abused, and it made sense. Then i thought about myself, and how I have a pretty "laid back", passive, at times (learned helplessness) sort of nature. and it again made sense.
to be quiet growing up was my way of escaping notice, to minimize any abuse towards myself. I had to be taught by my first boyfriend to have opinions and be assertive. I literally, at 14 years of age, had no opinions of my own whatsoever. I just agreed with whatever he (my boyfriend) said. no concept of self, which is pretty bad. I also am bad at returning phone calls and emails.
I dunno. Just writing down thoughts.