the-alchemist
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This year in February I moved abroad to study, and I've cut off all connections I had back in the old country due to all the honeysuckle I've gone through there.
And my mom is responsible for my bad childhood. If I would list everything she has done to fresia my life up, and the emotional scars I still carry, it wouldn't be enough to fill this whole post space. I grew up without my mother tongue, my native religion, I grew up without a family structure.
Those are just a few of the thousands bad things she has done, the emotional scars she has inflicted upon me.
Due to this, I am very angry at my mom whenever I think back. I'm constantly reminded of it everyday. Whether it be deficiencies in my personality or something else.
She is the only one I have contact with these days, I don't know why really. Although I don't like her, she is still my mom. I still care for her well-being, and these days she lives in a psychiatric home receiving treatment for depression.
But I can't forgive her for what she has done, but at the same time I care for her well-being and she is a bit vulnerable now. I'm afraid that if I talk to her about this, she might not be able to handle it, something bad might happen to her. At the same time, I don't know how long I can keep my feelings bottled up like this. I don't know how much longer I can keep up this facade
And my mom is responsible for my bad childhood. If I would list everything she has done to fresia my life up, and the emotional scars I still carry, it wouldn't be enough to fill this whole post space. I grew up without my mother tongue, my native religion, I grew up without a family structure.
Those are just a few of the thousands bad things she has done, the emotional scars she has inflicted upon me.
Due to this, I am very angry at my mom whenever I think back. I'm constantly reminded of it everyday. Whether it be deficiencies in my personality or something else.
She is the only one I have contact with these days, I don't know why really. Although I don't like her, she is still my mom. I still care for her well-being, and these days she lives in a psychiatric home receiving treatment for depression.
But I can't forgive her for what she has done, but at the same time I care for her well-being and she is a bit vulnerable now. I'm afraid that if I talk to her about this, she might not be able to handle it, something bad might happen to her. At the same time, I don't know how long I can keep my feelings bottled up like this. I don't know how much longer I can keep up this facade