Broken_n_Lost
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So Im bunking off work today and all I wanted to do was go relax with some friends or family. I was thinking of going Wimbledon to watch some tennis, anything really, just to get out of the house but not work. And I got no one I can call or ask...everyday its just me and yes I know I should go work but some-days its just tiring to be fake, it would have been really nice to just to out and enjoy the day with some peops or even someone! But no, just me again... "hi Broken_n_Lost how you doing?" says B_n_L, B_n_L responds honestly "Well Im doing fine, just a bit lost and my heart's a bit broken but other than that Im fine..." B_n_L not so convinced...
I dont get it, I like doing different things, trying new experiences but I got no one, I have to force myself to do things all by myself and I hate it. I dont want everyone to know that Im a loner and a loser so I dont attend things I will like just coz everyone will feel sorry for me or look down on me...I know everyone dont think like that but I cant seem to shake that feeling off. I dont get it???? People look at me and think she has it all, but its all in their head. I mean no one would ever look at me and think she has nothing coz that aint true either but I have a lot of things missing in my life and I am extremely alone with nothing in this world that I can say was mine...
Sorry for the depressing post, next one will be stupid and hopefully funny...
I dont get it, I like doing different things, trying new experiences but I got no one, I have to force myself to do things all by myself and I hate it. I dont want everyone to know that Im a loner and a loser so I dont attend things I will like just coz everyone will feel sorry for me or look down on me...I know everyone dont think like that but I cant seem to shake that feeling off. I dont get it???? People look at me and think she has it all, but its all in their head. I mean no one would ever look at me and think she has nothing coz that aint true either but I have a lot of things missing in my life and I am extremely alone with nothing in this world that I can say was mine...
Sorry for the depressing post, next one will be stupid and hopefully funny...