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SophiaGrace
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I'm trying very hard to make my loneliness go away. First, I figure I need to find out what I need in order not to feel lonely. I think if I had a few friends offline that I could visit whenever, or that asked me out, that would help greatly.
I love you guys really I do but I've found that if i feel I am not loved/cared about offline and am not around other people offline that I can interact with (not like people around me in a library that are strangers), that my mental health plumits.
I've begun to post ads on Craigslist and observing the responses I get to see what kinds of guys (and people in general) I connect with (and trust) and then am going to make sure I keep in contact with them, so I have people to talk to once I go back to College. Out of 60 responses to two Ads I've only responded to two of those people and I'm using my gut as a trust detector. The good thing about craigslist is that it is local. The bad thing is that it is used by a lot of guys looking for a pickup.
I'm not quite sure if I want to date guys, because I don't want to deal with the whole "lets have sex" thing. I have no idea what I want on that or what my emotional requirements are in order for that to work for me without me feeling used or empty inside afterwards. I'm not in general a very sexually open person. Maybe because I'm afraid of being hurt. I mean my body says YES PLEASE, but my head and heart are like "uh...............................................*spazz*" haha.
I cant deny that I have a need inside of me to feel like I belong and also to feel cared for. So, perhaps, I should use these two emotional needs of mine as a platform on approaching people I guess. I am going to use my strength of being able to make friendships online to my advantage. I still have no idea how to make more emotionally close friendships offline though. I'm a dunce in this regard I feel.
Maybe a general group to feel belonging to, and a few meaningful relations with others would be nice. Yes, I think that's what I want.
I love you guys really I do but I've found that if i feel I am not loved/cared about offline and am not around other people offline that I can interact with (not like people around me in a library that are strangers), that my mental health plumits.
I've begun to post ads on Craigslist and observing the responses I get to see what kinds of guys (and people in general) I connect with (and trust) and then am going to make sure I keep in contact with them, so I have people to talk to once I go back to College. Out of 60 responses to two Ads I've only responded to two of those people and I'm using my gut as a trust detector. The good thing about craigslist is that it is local. The bad thing is that it is used by a lot of guys looking for a pickup.
I'm not quite sure if I want to date guys, because I don't want to deal with the whole "lets have sex" thing. I have no idea what I want on that or what my emotional requirements are in order for that to work for me without me feeling used or empty inside afterwards. I'm not in general a very sexually open person. Maybe because I'm afraid of being hurt. I mean my body says YES PLEASE, but my head and heart are like "uh...............................................*spazz*" haha.
I cant deny that I have a need inside of me to feel like I belong and also to feel cared for. So, perhaps, I should use these two emotional needs of mine as a platform on approaching people I guess. I am going to use my strength of being able to make friendships online to my advantage. I still have no idea how to make more emotionally close friendships offline though. I'm a dunce in this regard I feel.
Maybe a general group to feel belonging to, and a few meaningful relations with others would be nice. Yes, I think that's what I want.