If I have said anything lately that angered or annoyed anyone, I'm sorry. My loneliness can cause wild mood swings sometimes. I'll be fine with the world for a while and then suddenly the loneliness sets in and I get depressed. I then sometimes have a habit of saying things I shouldn't.
Lately, I've been seeing multiple people at work getting married for a second time. Some have stated in the past that they have no interest in ever dating someone again. Then the next thing I know they are married again.
I honestly don't understand where people find other people to date. Just makes absolutely no sense. When multiple people around me start finding new people to date or get married to, it starts to remind me of how clueless I am. Then it comes to a boiling point where I just collapse and sometimes start throwing up. I've hit that point this evening. Unfortunately I don't know how long it will last since there isn't really a solution other than wait for someone in real life to talk to me.
Later this month things will get magnified. I do a large community service event that last 11 days. I'll be out in the public around thousands of people every day. I'll see a ton of couples each day and it completely wears me down. Not only that but the people I volunteer can sometimes be really cute females. They will bring their boyfriends and be all happy and bubbly. They will try to talk to me which gets me all depressed. I do what I can to avoid them. Unfortunately I can't just wander off and hide to relax. It's so sad that I have to torture myself just to help others in the community. But I'm too much into helping others that I punish myself a lot. Most people never realize how much pain I go through when I'm around all these happy couples. When I do end up opening up to someone, they think it's just strange and start ignoring me. So many women think I have an easy dating life. They never can understand ow I can possibly be single. Most people don't understand what it's like to be someone that doesn't grasp social life.
So once again, I'm sorry if I have posted anything bad. I'm going to go back to throwing up. Luckily I skipped dinner.
Lately, I've been seeing multiple people at work getting married for a second time. Some have stated in the past that they have no interest in ever dating someone again. Then the next thing I know they are married again.
I honestly don't understand where people find other people to date. Just makes absolutely no sense. When multiple people around me start finding new people to date or get married to, it starts to remind me of how clueless I am. Then it comes to a boiling point where I just collapse and sometimes start throwing up. I've hit that point this evening. Unfortunately I don't know how long it will last since there isn't really a solution other than wait for someone in real life to talk to me.
Later this month things will get magnified. I do a large community service event that last 11 days. I'll be out in the public around thousands of people every day. I'll see a ton of couples each day and it completely wears me down. Not only that but the people I volunteer can sometimes be really cute females. They will bring their boyfriends and be all happy and bubbly. They will try to talk to me which gets me all depressed. I do what I can to avoid them. Unfortunately I can't just wander off and hide to relax. It's so sad that I have to torture myself just to help others in the community. But I'm too much into helping others that I punish myself a lot. Most people never realize how much pain I go through when I'm around all these happy couples. When I do end up opening up to someone, they think it's just strange and start ignoring me. So many women think I have an easy dating life. They never can understand ow I can possibly be single. Most people don't understand what it's like to be someone that doesn't grasp social life.
So once again, I'm sorry if I have posted anything bad. I'm going to go back to throwing up. Luckily I skipped dinner.
