I feel lonely and empty..which of course lead to a depression.. so I spend many hours in bed thinking, trying not to get up, trying to dream of a world better than the one I'm living in.
But because of the fact that I had so much time to think.. I knew where my loneliness was coming from. I have friends, I have good friends, I had a few girlfriends and now some ex-girlfriends but still I never got rid of the loneliness and emptiness. Why? Because I always close myself down at a certain level. Nobody will ever get too close to me, I will never show the true me... only the happy part. So it made me think why do I never let anybody know how sad and lonely I feel? Well I came to the conclusion that it got something to do with how I was raised. I was learned not to cry but only to bleed because that is what men do. So I never show my weaknesses to anybody.
Anyway I would like to change that, but I'm still not ready to let my friends in on my weak side. So I registered my own domain and made my own blog to learn how to open up and show everything. Even the weak/sad side. In the end I hope to have learned how to open up to the ones closest to me! So that someday somebody knows the true me and sees the true me.
This is my blog http://www.iamkio.eu
If you have time you could have a look. (leave a comment to support me
) You will know that you are not alone dealing with loneliness. I hope one day we all get over this feeling, cause it's a feeling that no one should feel and no one deserves.
I like this post cause it's something positive.. so I hope you guys don't mind if I copy paste it in my blog.
But because of the fact that I had so much time to think.. I knew where my loneliness was coming from. I have friends, I have good friends, I had a few girlfriends and now some ex-girlfriends but still I never got rid of the loneliness and emptiness. Why? Because I always close myself down at a certain level. Nobody will ever get too close to me, I will never show the true me... only the happy part. So it made me think why do I never let anybody know how sad and lonely I feel? Well I came to the conclusion that it got something to do with how I was raised. I was learned not to cry but only to bleed because that is what men do. So I never show my weaknesses to anybody.
Anyway I would like to change that, but I'm still not ready to let my friends in on my weak side. So I registered my own domain and made my own blog to learn how to open up and show everything. Even the weak/sad side. In the end I hope to have learned how to open up to the ones closest to me! So that someday somebody knows the true me and sees the true me.
This is my blog http://www.iamkio.eu
If you have time you could have a look. (leave a comment to support me
) You will know that you are not alone dealing with loneliness. I hope one day we all get over this feeling, cause it's a feeling that no one should feel and no one deserves. I like this post cause it's something positive.. so I hope you guys don't mind if I copy paste it in my blog.
