SMOF said:
6 months of isolation. My family hates me. My friends are gone. Everyone at my work hates me. I hate me. This world is too much. No one gets it. We live in a society were only ones willing too follow can succeed.
Thats because bad guys are in control. Power corrupts. I've spent about 16 years in Isolation. My family either hates me or are dead. That good ones are dead. I hate me. As smart as I may be when it comes to some things, I'm completely inept when it comes to getting anywhere in this world, or with anyone in this world. fresia it.
But before you take that way out, I have a few things for you to consider.
1) A gun? Classic, gutsy, and yet soo amateur. Just think, if suicide were legal, how easy it would be. You go to the doctor, they give you some anastesia. You go to sleep and wake up a newborn child. That brings us to my next point:
2) Have you considered what happens after you die? Is it Heaven, or Reincarnation, or hell? IF, instead of killing yourself you provoke someone else into doing it, this increases your potential. If you kill yourself, you might be reincarnated into the same situation over and over again until you find another way through it.
3) You have chosen to "not follow" as the sheaple do. The more you stand alone, the more you will be alone, until one day you just don't care anymore. You will live inside your head, having little to appreciate outside of it. But this is a foolish course of action, unless you are determined to seek righteousness. If your alignment is evil, rather then good, it would better for you to follow and thus aquire power. If you don't increase in virtue, and become a saint. The path you are walking will be meaningless. If you are suffering, then to choose evil is to justify that suffering and guarantee more of it.
4) What's the difference between Imagination and reality anyway? Both are processed inside the brain. Out here, you and I are nothing, but in there, we can be anything. That's what keeps me going. Reality is for beginners, lol. It's a lot harder when you have to imagine other characters that don't really exist, and see landscapes that aren't there, and imagine sounds you aren't really hearing. I mean it's a lot harder then just living in the world you can see. It requires infinite creativity and a spirit that loves adventure.
Is life truly a dead end? I suggest you really search it out before living with it for 16 years. By then it will be too late...
