I just feel so annoyed with myself....not sure if it's classed as a 'social problem' but I just can't seem to have a pleasant drink on a 'school' night and just go home to bed.
Today, my parents took my dog to the beach for a run/swim (they do it once a week and I appreciate it because otherwise he's stuck in my flat all day). So, usually they drop him off at mine before I get home from work. Today they didn't and I went to theirs to get him. Had a glass of wine whilst I was there.
I'm like a dog that's tasted blood! 1 glass of wine leads to me wanting to get absolutely sh!tfaced. I bought a bottle on the way home which I have now finished and am thinking about going to the all night offy for more. But why do I do this? It's not like I am having a party and I'm having a great time and I don't want the party to end, I am just sat alone in my flat, drinking like a saddo, imagining about a great life I might one day have.
I am not an alcoholic by any stretch of the imagination. I go three/four weeks without a drop and it doesn't bother me, I think I'm a binge drinking addict. I just can't seem to do it normally and I can't understand why!
It's 1.30am here where I am and I know I am going to go to the offy any minute for another bottle. I tell myself all the sensible things in the world and they don't get through.
The rational part of me says 'Kat, you have to get up in 5 hours, don't be a dick' and the slightly alcohol part of me says 'ah go on, it's only Friday tomorrow...no-one works on a Friday'
I guess I am not really looking for advice because I know it already but why the flip can't I just drink like a normal person!
I said that I don't think it's a social problem but maybe it is. Sometimes if I do go out and have a few drinks, I sometimes what to come home early to drink more on my own any listen (and sing badly) to music.
Today, my parents took my dog to the beach for a run/swim (they do it once a week and I appreciate it because otherwise he's stuck in my flat all day). So, usually they drop him off at mine before I get home from work. Today they didn't and I went to theirs to get him. Had a glass of wine whilst I was there.
I'm like a dog that's tasted blood! 1 glass of wine leads to me wanting to get absolutely sh!tfaced. I bought a bottle on the way home which I have now finished and am thinking about going to the all night offy for more. But why do I do this? It's not like I am having a party and I'm having a great time and I don't want the party to end, I am just sat alone in my flat, drinking like a saddo, imagining about a great life I might one day have.
I am not an alcoholic by any stretch of the imagination. I go three/four weeks without a drop and it doesn't bother me, I think I'm a binge drinking addict. I just can't seem to do it normally and I can't understand why!
It's 1.30am here where I am and I know I am going to go to the offy any minute for another bottle. I tell myself all the sensible things in the world and they don't get through.
The rational part of me says 'Kat, you have to get up in 5 hours, don't be a dick' and the slightly alcohol part of me says 'ah go on, it's only Friday tomorrow...no-one works on a Friday'
I guess I am not really looking for advice because I know it already but why the flip can't I just drink like a normal person!
I said that I don't think it's a social problem but maybe it is. Sometimes if I do go out and have a few drinks, I sometimes what to come home early to drink more on my own any listen (and sing badly) to music.