randomdude
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On top of being anxious and depressed, everything that people say to me whether if it is joke or insult i instantly feel wounded and vulnerable. It gets worse when i hear many people laughing at the time when someone said something on my account. The moment i hear laughter and joke/insult all confidence i have is gone and i feel like all people around me will think less of me because i feel so sick for a moment that i cannot even talk back or say anything to counter what they said and if i try my voice and whole body is trembling in fear and i sound like a p*ssy. So by the time people figure they can say anything to me and get away with it they just continue poking me. Back in the high school days they poked me so much that i got cornered and had to fight my way out many times. I figured that confidence might be an issue so i trained 20 months of gym, got some solid gains and i was pretty big compared to my peers but STILL i felt small and i just couldn't take a joke or anything said against me without feeling wounded. I am 20 years old on Zyprexa and Carbamazepine(Karbapin), i would really like to hear what you think about this problem of mine since it basically feels like something beyond my reach of solving!