Recent content by cyrano

to want something. Someone once told me that my desire's broken. Pretty accurate.

I'm bored, vaguely unhappy but not miserable, but can't summon the energy to do anything beside just doing the same old thing, day after day.

kayaking.

I'd like to join chat. thx

three thoughts because it's late and, like a lot of lawyers you may know, I brought work home that I need to file Monday morning-- 1. I subscribe to Seth Godin's daily web postings. Earlier this week he wrote about problems and paradoxes; a problem can be difficult but has a solution; by...

I'm not just speaking for myself in saying that loneliness does not typically abate with age. It's harder to make and keep friends as you get older. Worse, your friends have a bad habit of dying. It's physically harder to do things (right now, I've got pains in my neck, shoulders, and left...

Well, in my experience and observation they're either temporary or based in fantasy or psychosis. People drift apart, either physically or due to changed circumstances. I find I don't break up with them in some sort of fight, but the gravity that made the friendship no longer exists. It's often...

I've wanted it; a few times, I've had it. I couldn't hang on to it. I'm suspicious of it now, afraid it'll just hurt or disappoint me again. I wish all of you success in finding it, and that it makes you happy.

I eat alone about twice a month, typically at places that have bars; I eat at the bar. I find it easier to talk to strangers than to people I know; actually more interested in them, so I wind up asking questions and learning about their lives...sometimes bartenders, sometimes other customers...

um, over. by a fair amount.

First, I'm glad you got a compliment and it made you feel better about yourself. I understand wanting to be the life of the party because I catch myself trying too hard to be an entertainer, a raconteur. For a shy person, I'm a pretty good storyteller, in part because I learned how to be one...

bullying as a child, and a general sense of not belonging, pushed me inward. Then when I became attracted to girls as a teenager, a mix of being funny-looking and a year younger than everyone in my class (for some reason, there was a stigma against dating girls in lower grades) meant that I...

Can I ask, what kind of wrong choices are you making? It might help to know.

When my parents asked me what I wanted for high school graduation, I said: a name change and plastic surgery. That was a while and a half ago, and plastic surgery was not so accepted in the greater American culture. They took umbrage at the name change thing (I wanted both first and LAST names...

I think about it too. For me it's to go back to SE Asia, where I worked, well, a long, long time ago. I'd like to be the world's oldest digital nomad, make a living with a laptop and a wifi signal, never put on a tie again, make enough money to have what I need. An alternative would be Mexico...