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Sounds like me, except I am filled with hate instead of emptyness. Not sure what I'd prefer.

The joy of knowing that with all my problems, my life will be short. Even though it is unrealistic, I hope I'll pass away before the age of 30. This makes me smile each and every time I think about it. Oh, and food makes me happy/smile! Iirc, being friendless like me is as unhealthy as being...

Ugh... My life just keep getting worse. I just keep getting more and more depressed. I am typing this at 4am so my insomnia is still my best friend. My hate, which I have had toward society and people in general for a few years, is also, sadly, still growing. I often have to fight the urge...

Another sleepless night...

That would be my computer. Here I am in my own little bubble relaxing, untill someone tries to pop it... That would be you guys here and ALL. I could try. At the moment I have one therapist and one teacher. I go to the therapist twice a week and the teacher comes home to me twice a week...

QTF Still don't know what I should do though.

She is an adult. She should think about the effect it has on me. right?

My mother is the one who stresses me... leaving like that for no apparent reason.

He is not that bad really, just know how to make it hurt when he gets mad.

We have teribble internet connection at our cottage. During the winter, a good internet connection is essential (else I am going to become crazy(ier)). He is not an big angry baby, more of a big, old, tired, and grumpy man. And my aunt lives so far away (8 hours w/ car(?)). Ugh... Hopefully...

I really can't handle living at the cottage during the winter. Also hope I'll get dinner today. When my father is in a bad mood (he should be), I never know what will happend. Stings me in the heart to say, but I'd actually like a divorce if it weren't for the fact that my father is sick.

Well... any ideas what I should do now?

I just came home from a visit to my aunt yesterday. It was amazingly fun. So I came home from this little 'break' in life and hoped something, by magc, had changed. Oh boy was I right! I managed to sleep at around 6am, that is neither good nor bad. I wake up at aroun 9am., took a shower and...

Never getting a (good) education and/or die alone.

And if you're always in a bad mood like me...?

Back in my 'what is the point of life' depressed phase again... The point of life is to reproduce and get your DNA to survive by the way!

Yay! I managed to sleep a few hours tonight! Hope this will continue!

I (sadly) did not. I am not sure if I regret it or not.

Sure, in the futur. Not now though.

I just hope I manage to get there. In my current state, I doubt it. Not like I have a choice.