somniloquy
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I need help. I am in love with a woman who is engaged to someone else and is dating another person (well sort of fooling around). To make matters worse I have to keep seeing her for the next 12 days and keep on being friendly (I thought we were friends but really we are just friendly acquaintances) while seeing her be happy around this other guy.
When they sit there in a corner, cracking their own personal jokes being all in love (as if it is their dirty little secret, but I just found out the whole office knows it anyways-- I was just too blind to notice it),
every single such moment kills me inside. Makes me want to puke. But when I try, I feel like my guts are coming out.
I probably had crush on her since day 1 at the office, about 17 months ago, but I realised I was actually in love with her when she decided to quit, after getting engaged.
I was heartbroken but I always knew I never had a shot with her. And then she got engaged and that was that. So I just wanted spend the little time we had left together as good friends. Then she decided not to quit, and that made me even more happy. That I will get 3 more months with her.
But these three months have been extremely tough on me. I have slowly seen them get together (an office told me they were together much before that and it has just become more obvious now-- how blind could I be!!!). And to make things worse, she is such a nice person that you can't even hate her. She is lovely, she is beautiful and has a wonderful personality. No, nobody can hate her.
Yes I am obese, and loud, and obnoxious sometimes. But I am not that bad of a person. I don't think I deserve it. My life has been a big pile of turd since the last 2-3 years.
And I am willing to change that. It will take time but yes I will turn myself around a little.
But what do I do in the next 12 days? We work in the same office. Its a small office, I cannot avoid them. I just came back from a long vacation. I cant take a leave. What do I do? Help me!
When they sit there in a corner, cracking their own personal jokes being all in love (as if it is their dirty little secret, but I just found out the whole office knows it anyways-- I was just too blind to notice it),
every single such moment kills me inside. Makes me want to puke. But when I try, I feel like my guts are coming out.
I probably had crush on her since day 1 at the office, about 17 months ago, but I realised I was actually in love with her when she decided to quit, after getting engaged.
I was heartbroken but I always knew I never had a shot with her. And then she got engaged and that was that. So I just wanted spend the little time we had left together as good friends. Then she decided not to quit, and that made me even more happy. That I will get 3 more months with her.
But these three months have been extremely tough on me. I have slowly seen them get together (an office told me they were together much before that and it has just become more obvious now-- how blind could I be!!!). And to make things worse, she is such a nice person that you can't even hate her. She is lovely, she is beautiful and has a wonderful personality. No, nobody can hate her.
Yes I am obese, and loud, and obnoxious sometimes. But I am not that bad of a person. I don't think I deserve it. My life has been a big pile of turd since the last 2-3 years.
And I am willing to change that. It will take time but yes I will turn myself around a little.
But what do I do in the next 12 days? We work in the same office. Its a small office, I cannot avoid them. I just came back from a long vacation. I cant take a leave. What do I do? Help me!