I just read your last thread, which prompted me to put a certain song on... and now I am thinking about what that song means to me.
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Whoops.. realised that I didn't state what I was thinking, just the fact that I WAS thinking. Idiot girl.
I'm thinking about the guy who sent the song to me and that I miss hanging out with him.
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11-14-2007, 04:35 PM
(This post was last modified: 11-14-2007, 04:35 PM by Qui.)
I am thinking about life in general... and about how I'm too much of a wuss to love people. I'm kind of wondering why I'm like this and I'm also wondering why I am writing this because no one cares what I think anyway. I'm also thinking someone may respond to that to deny it but they won't because I'm adding this sentence to say that I would expect them to respond but now don't expect them to because I am saying this which will cause people to not bother to argue with me because there really isn't any point anyway. I am thinking myself in circles. It is dangerous for me to respond to these things, I think, because I don't think in logical sequences all the time. I wonder why I'm so lonely and I think it's gotten to my head because I never expected to ever really talk to anyone here, I thought I would post once or twice and be ignored like I was on every other forum I've ever been on, but people here are so kind and caring that they spare a moment to acknowledge me and it really means a lot to me, so I guess this is my way of saying thank you to everyone here... That's what I'm thinking right now.
like a kerosene fire in a tobacco shed
I am thinking, "Even my own daughter doesn't love me," and wondering what I should do right now because I can't sleep.
Qui, it DOES feel good to be noticed, and I assure you that I have noticed you in the few short days I have been a member. I have been reading your posts. A lot of people here care what you think. That is the impression I've gotten.
We have to be careful about thinking ourselves in circles, don't we? We sometimes lead ourselves into trouble (emotional turmoil). I'm glad you wrote about something important to you because I can try to focus on that to break my own thought circle (above) which, as you see, is not a good circle in which to be stuck.
p.s. Okay, I am sounding stupid (again).
I'm thinking about suicide and how good these off brand doritos are.
edit:I meant just suicide in general not that I'm considering it.
I am wondering how many (if any) of you have ever laid down and imagined what it would be like to walk around in your house if the ceiling were the floor (lights would be coming out of the floor, etc)....I often did this when I was a child, and I still think it's cool.
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GodsWitch Wrote:I am wondering how many (if any) of you have ever laid down and imagined what it would be like to walk around in your house if the ceiling were the floor (lights would be coming out of the floor, etc)....I often did this when I was a child, and I still think it's cool.
All the f*cking time. But I also think that all the paper flowers hanging on strings from the ceiling wouldn't be hanging anymore and then I get sad and want it to be normal.
like a kerosene fire in a tobacco shed