I'm really sad today. Although loneliness is always with me, sometimes it is harder to deal with than at others. This week three things happened which have made me feel low.
I went to the funeral of an elderly lady on Tuesday-we weren't close, but she was once very kind to me, so I wanted to show my respects. There were so many people there to commemorate her life (I am glad, as she was a lovely lady), but it made me think who would come to my funeral when I pass on, as I have no family and few close friends? I feel guilty for thinking of myself at such a time, but nontheless I couldn't stop these thoughts.
On Wednesday I went for the first time to a service at the church where I go to a mental health support group and everyone (except the vicar, and the man who runs the support group) blanked me. I tried to catch people's eyes and I smiled, but I was invisible.
This morning at the writing group I mentioned the funeral and about being lonely and one woman didn't get my loneliness at all. She is lonely only very occasionally, and hasn't experienced the constant loneliness which most of us here are dealing with.
I went to the funeral of an elderly lady on Tuesday-we weren't close, but she was once very kind to me, so I wanted to show my respects. There were so many people there to commemorate her life (I am glad, as she was a lovely lady), but it made me think who would come to my funeral when I pass on, as I have no family and few close friends? I feel guilty for thinking of myself at such a time, but nontheless I couldn't stop these thoughts.
On Wednesday I went for the first time to a service at the church where I go to a mental health support group and everyone (except the vicar, and the man who runs the support group) blanked me. I tried to catch people's eyes and I smiled, but I was invisible.
This morning at the writing group I mentioned the funeral and about being lonely and one woman didn't get my loneliness at all. She is lonely only very occasionally, and hasn't experienced the constant loneliness which most of us here are dealing with.