Nice But Dim Jim said:
I'm stuck inside my house and can't work out how to get out.
Recently moved out of my home as I split up with my girlfriend. This place doesn't feel like my home and it never will, i hate it but all I do is sit in it. I work long hours so I don't have to face reality but when I do, it just drags me down.
The real problem is, I can't remember what makes me happy or what even entertained me. I just sit there watching TV. I don't even have the motivation to play a computer game, I quit the gym, I won't go out with my friends and I can't rely on my family.
What chance is there for me to ever make someone else happy if I can't even make myself happy?
I like to respond with analogous anecdotes, but generally people don't understand analogy, so they view the story as derailing rather than giving advice using a similar situation. If so, kinda disregard this, but hopefully, you can glean something out of it.
Aside from moving around alot (my dad's a priest), and having to work and fight to adjust to a new area, making new friends (good but then they get pulled away from me when we move) and finding a job (hopeless, "it's not what you know but who you know" are my dad's words and even if I did have enough knowledge to get hired just on that, I'm a shy shell-shocked person who doesn't know anyone), primarily I've tried to form meaningful relationships with the opposite sex.
Yes, I say meaningful. I don't enough about sex for a one-night stand, I want strong bonds with someone. I'd want someone who can go shopping with me (I'm a crossdresser, as mentioned in the LGBT thread, but besides that I'm big into books, movies, and rpg games, the latter of which has gone into planned obsolescence and the other two are likely to follow thanks to @&*# Nooks and Kindles, not to mention we don't have Blu-Ray), who I can talk about it if I had a crappy day, who I can travel with (travel is the one constant in my life, so I like to do it, but travelling alone is kinda nerve-wracking, since you have to be wary of falling asleep when it's just you), and talk with (and other stuff like cuddling).
Unfortunately, I had a nasty "breakup" with a girl right after college. Or rather, we were never boyfriend and girlfriend, I kept trying to get her to leave her crappy boyfriend who started a bar room brawl (yes, seriously, who does that?) and got put in prison. Because moving around has made me desperate for company, I get clingy and weird when people are about to leave, and tend to attract people who are in primary (got a boyfriend) or secondary (no boyfriend, but "married" to the family/job) relationships and thus unavailable.
So anyway, some girl I sorta like decides to make herself completely scarce because she gets creeped out by the fact that I need love and a sense of connection from someone like most people need water. So after college, I sort of drift for awhile, no job, no sense of purpose. I get a job or two, but these jobs generally turn abusive (they want work on days I'm not willing to allow (since we didn't agree to it), and pester and prod me when I don't, trying to get me to leave on my own will, I generally won't since I want to belong there). But generally, yea, I'm stuck at home most of my daylight hours.
The important thing is, don't let years pass. This place is okay as a home base, but try to answer "What is it I like to do?" For me, it was gardening and volunteer work. Which kinda... doesn't help me at all financially.