Bebeskii
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First of all i have to tell you that I live with aunt who is 50 years and my mom. I've just made aunt cry ;I told her she's been too lazy for the past two years and it is getting worse. She cleans home once a week but wash dishes and make a dinner everyday. Foods she cooks are bland and which lacks spirit. She does not care about a stain the table or rotten staff in the fridge. She was so different before. She stopped working as a teacher 10 years ago and she always stays at home; no friends, no goals, no husband no children in life. She raised me up. My mom is always busy working. I try to be as close as i can be to her but she just pushes me away because she hates when someone touches her. Actually she made me cry many times and she never apologizes. She horribly criticizes me saying I'm useless, weak, underling etc. Those words really hurt my feelings just like cutting my chest down with something sharp. Whatever i complain, it is all my fault. I look for some reassurance and advice from her but she does not.
I just let the words fall out honestly. Now she is saying that she will die soon and can no longer be a burden on me. She is my family member but she acts like an outsider. Without her, I would get lots of problems to deal with. Once I get into a nice job with high salary i will definitely do many things to make her happy. I feel so bad about myself right now. However, she is completely different person when my cousin visits with her husband and daughter. My aunt makes an excellent dinner and cleans the home in very short period of time as soon as she hears they're coming. My cousin is like my elder sister I lived with her 15 years. I mean She moved away two years ago. She often visits and my aunt is so nice to them. I understand that my cousin is like her own daughter , but i just hate it. Maybe that's why I'm sometimes harsh on my aunt.
I just let the words fall out honestly. Now she is saying that she will die soon and can no longer be a burden on me. She is my family member but she acts like an outsider. Without her, I would get lots of problems to deal with. Once I get into a nice job with high salary i will definitely do many things to make her happy. I feel so bad about myself right now. However, she is completely different person when my cousin visits with her husband and daughter. My aunt makes an excellent dinner and cleans the home in very short period of time as soon as she hears they're coming. My cousin is like my elder sister I lived with her 15 years. I mean She moved away two years ago. She often visits and my aunt is so nice to them. I understand that my cousin is like her own daughter , but i just hate it. Maybe that's why I'm sometimes harsh on my aunt.