jjessea
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...that loneliness can make me so vulnerable.
So I know this young woman. She's got problems. She's manipulative, deceitful, addicted to drugs, and beautiful. She has latched onto me for some ungodly reason and tortures me with the promise of what she could be if she tried, but just can't, or just won't. You can't even have a relationship with this girl; we'll spend fleeting romantic nights together and then she'll disappear for weeks on end. She's lied to me, stolen from me and manipulated me. She's just awful through and through. I've told her to stay away from me but tonight, just like before, she's reached out to me for whatever reason. I find myself constantly glancing at my phone, imagining what it'll be like if we talk again, hoping beyond hope that she's changed.
I just wish I had somebody else to focus on. Someone else to take my mind off of her. Some other more healthy, realistic hope for the future. Despite all rational objections, emotionally, I just want to see her again. I plan on telling her to stay away from me, for the hundredth time it seems, it's just not going to be easy.
So I know this young woman. She's got problems. She's manipulative, deceitful, addicted to drugs, and beautiful. She has latched onto me for some ungodly reason and tortures me with the promise of what she could be if she tried, but just can't, or just won't. You can't even have a relationship with this girl; we'll spend fleeting romantic nights together and then she'll disappear for weeks on end. She's lied to me, stolen from me and manipulated me. She's just awful through and through. I've told her to stay away from me but tonight, just like before, she's reached out to me for whatever reason. I find myself constantly glancing at my phone, imagining what it'll be like if we talk again, hoping beyond hope that she's changed.
I just wish I had somebody else to focus on. Someone else to take my mind off of her. Some other more healthy, realistic hope for the future. Despite all rational objections, emotionally, I just want to see her again. I plan on telling her to stay away from me, for the hundredth time it seems, it's just not going to be easy.