breakthecycle
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So here goes i wanted to post on this site for a long time, but i just never founded the right words to say.
Poor English sry.
Since im drunk yes i got drunk all alone. Cuz thats the only time i fell alive besides that i just feel like a useless white meat without any future or hope.
Today i called my old buddies and told them how i felt. And told em how much im disappointed about them. That they never called or cared about my life. Pathetic? sure thing.
But what do you want me do to? Be strong and pretend that everything is all right. When the truth is that i want to commit suicide 24/7. And all I can think about is the past and what i did wrong back then,.
I may have suicide thoughts for no reason, but should´ t I feel that way when im alone ALL the friggin time
Here is some facts:
Im 17 years old still a virgin
I dont have any friends left
Im already a drunk and a burnout
And I have been unemployed for 7 months.
Maybe should i do something aboutit , but have can I do that wheneveryone around already have judge me as a weak geek with no future.
What should i do
Give me a reason why I should stick around..
And when i wake up tomorrow i may regret this post but whatever who cares
Poor English sry.
Since im drunk yes i got drunk all alone. Cuz thats the only time i fell alive besides that i just feel like a useless white meat without any future or hope.
Today i called my old buddies and told them how i felt. And told em how much im disappointed about them. That they never called or cared about my life. Pathetic? sure thing.
But what do you want me do to? Be strong and pretend that everything is all right. When the truth is that i want to commit suicide 24/7. And all I can think about is the past and what i did wrong back then,.
I may have suicide thoughts for no reason, but should´ t I feel that way when im alone ALL the friggin time
Here is some facts:
Im 17 years old still a virgin
I dont have any friends left
Im already a drunk and a burnout
And I have been unemployed for 7 months.
Maybe should i do something aboutit , but have can I do that wheneveryone around already have judge me as a weak geek with no future.
What should i do
Give me a reason why I should stick around..
And when i wake up tomorrow i may regret this post but whatever who cares