Lately a lot of my friends have been getting into these seemingly fulfilling relationships, one even says he's in love. It's made me think about how chronically single I've been the past few years.
My last super serious girlfriend was the last time I've made a real, long-lasting and fulfilling connection. I still talk to that girl and sometimes feel like I'm the biggest idiot for not doing everything within my power to be with her (we live across the country from each other now). She was the only girl I can truly say I've loved. Even she seems to be with someone she is really excited about, which I figured anyway because she stopped talking to me.
I've dated a lot this past year, but no single dating situation went past a few months, nothing lasted. The one girl I was dating the longest said to me, after my car was totaled and I was in the ER, "oh that sucks." She never attempted to visit or see how I was doing with my cracked ribs.
The last two official dates I've had I've been stood-up on both occasions. It was even at the same restaurant. It made me feel really stupid and unworthy of anyone's time. I'm talking to a girl now who wants to hang out with me and I think we might have potential but honestly I might not pursue anything because I'm tired of being so disappointed. I'm tired of not being able to make a deeper connection with a significant someone. Of not being with someone where you bring out the best in each other just by being with them.
I feel like I'm never going to find that again. 4eva alone.
My last super serious girlfriend was the last time I've made a real, long-lasting and fulfilling connection. I still talk to that girl and sometimes feel like I'm the biggest idiot for not doing everything within my power to be with her (we live across the country from each other now). She was the only girl I can truly say I've loved. Even she seems to be with someone she is really excited about, which I figured anyway because she stopped talking to me.
I've dated a lot this past year, but no single dating situation went past a few months, nothing lasted. The one girl I was dating the longest said to me, after my car was totaled and I was in the ER, "oh that sucks." She never attempted to visit or see how I was doing with my cracked ribs.
The last two official dates I've had I've been stood-up on both occasions. It was even at the same restaurant. It made me feel really stupid and unworthy of anyone's time. I'm talking to a girl now who wants to hang out with me and I think we might have potential but honestly I might not pursue anything because I'm tired of being so disappointed. I'm tired of not being able to make a deeper connection with a significant someone. Of not being with someone where you bring out the best in each other just by being with them.
I feel like I'm never going to find that again. 4eva alone.
