Hello everyone,
My name is Simon and I live in country Fermanagh in Northen Ireland.
I'm here because over the past 5 years or so I've been suffering from terrible fits of loneliness and depression. It's has it's moments of beings not too bad to terrible and recently it has become bad again so after some searching online, to find material to read, I came across this place and thought I'd spend a bit of time here and see how it effects me.
It used to be a puzzle why I'd feel this way becuase things aren't too bad with me. I enjoy my work, I am an active member in a great astronomy club, I have a car and enjoy going out for drives, I get pleasure from walking in the country side and also taking photographs of it.
Living on my own doesn't help much but I'm a strong person so I always pull through but when it gets really bad it takes so much out of me that I tend to get ill, whether it be a flu or a cold.
I recently got paid of from my job and instantly decided to go self employed. It's rough sea working on your own but I ride the waves well. Its' only recently that I realised I became depressed over the loss of my job. It's taken away a certain sense of security that I've always been used to with a job and now working for myself is unpredictable and sometimes scary.
I don't have many friends, I'll be honest, most of those I am friends with I don't have much in comon with. I did have a wonderful, close friendship for almost five years but because of my lonliness I made some mistakes - one too many - that has badly damaged it and will probably never recover, but I'm going to try hard.
I honestly believe that the source of my lonliness is to due with the deep desire I have inside to look after someome. Of course that is normal and everyone wants to love and take care of someone but I feel so empty and incomplete and for some reason, I don't know why, women never seem interested in me.
I've been told I'm attractive and hadsome so it's can't be to do with my looks.
I'm a mature and senseable person, self disciplined and open minded but I do have a tendency of letting my mind go around in circles when something troubles me.
I live an active live and keep busy and look after myself very well so I can't find any fault there.
I can have low self asteam sometimes and I can easily run myself down too but the source of that comes from my dyslexia, which is a confronting drain on me emotionally.
I'll stop ranting now becuase it's starting to feel that I am rambling on at random and feeling like a mess.
I hope to get involved in some discussions here and see if it helps me in anyway.
My name is Simon and I live in country Fermanagh in Northen Ireland.
I'm here because over the past 5 years or so I've been suffering from terrible fits of loneliness and depression. It's has it's moments of beings not too bad to terrible and recently it has become bad again so after some searching online, to find material to read, I came across this place and thought I'd spend a bit of time here and see how it effects me.
It used to be a puzzle why I'd feel this way becuase things aren't too bad with me. I enjoy my work, I am an active member in a great astronomy club, I have a car and enjoy going out for drives, I get pleasure from walking in the country side and also taking photographs of it.
Living on my own doesn't help much but I'm a strong person so I always pull through but when it gets really bad it takes so much out of me that I tend to get ill, whether it be a flu or a cold.
I recently got paid of from my job and instantly decided to go self employed. It's rough sea working on your own but I ride the waves well. Its' only recently that I realised I became depressed over the loss of my job. It's taken away a certain sense of security that I've always been used to with a job and now working for myself is unpredictable and sometimes scary.
I don't have many friends, I'll be honest, most of those I am friends with I don't have much in comon with. I did have a wonderful, close friendship for almost five years but because of my lonliness I made some mistakes - one too many - that has badly damaged it and will probably never recover, but I'm going to try hard.
I honestly believe that the source of my lonliness is to due with the deep desire I have inside to look after someome. Of course that is normal and everyone wants to love and take care of someone but I feel so empty and incomplete and for some reason, I don't know why, women never seem interested in me.
I've been told I'm attractive and hadsome so it's can't be to do with my looks.
I'm a mature and senseable person, self disciplined and open minded but I do have a tendency of letting my mind go around in circles when something troubles me.
I live an active live and keep busy and look after myself very well so I can't find any fault there.
I can have low self asteam sometimes and I can easily run myself down too but the source of that comes from my dyslexia, which is a confronting drain on me emotionally.
I'll stop ranting now becuase it's starting to feel that I am rambling on at random and feeling like a mess.
I hope to get involved in some discussions here and see if it helps me in anyway.
