Xeta
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Hi there. ive been forgetting to post haha, but thats aside anything
Ok look heres my dilemma. ill start by talking about what made me what i am in the first place. back in about 7th grade or so i was pretty popular. far from lonely and doing real well for myself. Except then, after a while, sometime in the middle of school, it all went horribly wrong. at first a few friends rejected me and i didnt think much of it. but then more and more friends left me... until i was left completely alone. i wandered in this loneliness for about 1/2 a year. not talking to anyone.. always watching others having fun, the way i used to. always scared of others motives. as i said, not talking to anyone; just walking with my head down and mouth closed. ashamed, embarrassed and nervous all the time, i always thought of myself as nothing. crying in my bed alot. it was horrible. I'm finally coming away from it a bit. I have a few friends now but the feelings of loneliness and worthlessness remain. The prolonged isolation created a void that none of my friends can fill.
I've been trying to find a girlfriend, but i have no luck. a couple of my friends (girls btw) say that im an amazing "catch". they say im really good looking, smart, funny, honest, and very kind. i have i hard time believing them. Ive had no luck on girls that im interested in. i am picky to a degree, but its still pretty wide. i know i lack a lot of self confidence, but i dont understand how girls would be able to see it. and if they started a relationship with me, my confidence would go way up, so it wouldnt matter the way i am now. but please i need some help here. any help would be very appreciated!
Ok look heres my dilemma. ill start by talking about what made me what i am in the first place. back in about 7th grade or so i was pretty popular. far from lonely and doing real well for myself. Except then, after a while, sometime in the middle of school, it all went horribly wrong. at first a few friends rejected me and i didnt think much of it. but then more and more friends left me... until i was left completely alone. i wandered in this loneliness for about 1/2 a year. not talking to anyone.. always watching others having fun, the way i used to. always scared of others motives. as i said, not talking to anyone; just walking with my head down and mouth closed. ashamed, embarrassed and nervous all the time, i always thought of myself as nothing. crying in my bed alot. it was horrible. I'm finally coming away from it a bit. I have a few friends now but the feelings of loneliness and worthlessness remain. The prolonged isolation created a void that none of my friends can fill.
I've been trying to find a girlfriend, but i have no luck. a couple of my friends (girls btw) say that im an amazing "catch". they say im really good looking, smart, funny, honest, and very kind. i have i hard time believing them. Ive had no luck on girls that im interested in. i am picky to a degree, but its still pretty wide. i know i lack a lot of self confidence, but i dont understand how girls would be able to see it. and if they started a relationship with me, my confidence would go way up, so it wouldnt matter the way i am now. but please i need some help here. any help would be very appreciated!