it sucks. it really does. I don't know what to do. maybe it's just a phase... I think I need to call a friend. this pandemic isn't making things easier either. I wanted to go to college to be a teacher but I don't think I like online classes both as a course and a method to teach students. I don't even feel like this coronavirus thing is that bad but what do I know I'm not a medical professional. my future is looking very uncertain. I hate it.