SmallTownLonely
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I’ve never posted anything on the Internet before, but after being depressed for over three months I’ve finally gotten to a point where I need to talk to someone who will listen, so I guess this is the best place to introduce myself and what led me here:
I am a 37 year old male who has no friends. I haven’t had anyone I can truly call a best friend for almost half of my life. I just don’t understand what is wrong with me. I’m personable and those around me think highly of me, but all of them have their own life to live that doesn’t include me.
My life consists of going to work as a teacher, going home and going to bed hoping not to wake up in the morning, only to have my first thought in the morning be, “****! I have to face another day.” I tend to spend a lot of time at work because it is my only opportunity to interact with others. Loneliness consumes me when I get home to an empty and quiet house.
I live in the same isolated, very small town I grew up in. The nearest stoplight, movie theater, or fast food is 60 miles away, which limits the opportunity to meet new people outside work. I probably care too much what others think of me and a small town makes it even harder to find someone who cares about me without rumors being spread that degrade my image. I can’t stand bars because of the smoke and loud music. I don’t really know of anything I enjoy doing, and no one to enjoy it with.
I believe highly in the golden rule, and can’t think of anyone who dislikes me. I am shy when talking to new people, but I can be fun if given the chance to get to know me.
Since I haven’t had a friend in so long, you can probably guess I have no love life. I haven’t kissed a woman in over 15 years, which was the last time I had a girlfriend. In fact I’m still a virgin. I truly long for the touch of another human to hold.
The one person I recently tried to confide in tried to convince me that I have lots of friends, but I only see those people in my life as acquaintances and co-workers. Isn’t a friend someone who enjoys being around you and do things with you? Someone you can talk to? I don’t have anyone like that. I was hoping this one person could give me answers and guide me in the right direction, but I just didn’t get any help from her. She is just yet another acquaintance who doesn’t have time for me.
I would like to find at least one person I can call a true best friend and ultimately find a woman who loves me for the caring, giving individual I am and I was hoping someone here could assist in guiding me in a direction that would make me happier.
I am a 37 year old male who has no friends. I haven’t had anyone I can truly call a best friend for almost half of my life. I just don’t understand what is wrong with me. I’m personable and those around me think highly of me, but all of them have their own life to live that doesn’t include me.
My life consists of going to work as a teacher, going home and going to bed hoping not to wake up in the morning, only to have my first thought in the morning be, “****! I have to face another day.” I tend to spend a lot of time at work because it is my only opportunity to interact with others. Loneliness consumes me when I get home to an empty and quiet house.
I live in the same isolated, very small town I grew up in. The nearest stoplight, movie theater, or fast food is 60 miles away, which limits the opportunity to meet new people outside work. I probably care too much what others think of me and a small town makes it even harder to find someone who cares about me without rumors being spread that degrade my image. I can’t stand bars because of the smoke and loud music. I don’t really know of anything I enjoy doing, and no one to enjoy it with.
I believe highly in the golden rule, and can’t think of anyone who dislikes me. I am shy when talking to new people, but I can be fun if given the chance to get to know me.
Since I haven’t had a friend in so long, you can probably guess I have no love life. I haven’t kissed a woman in over 15 years, which was the last time I had a girlfriend. In fact I’m still a virgin. I truly long for the touch of another human to hold.
The one person I recently tried to confide in tried to convince me that I have lots of friends, but I only see those people in my life as acquaintances and co-workers. Isn’t a friend someone who enjoys being around you and do things with you? Someone you can talk to? I don’t have anyone like that. I was hoping this one person could give me answers and guide me in the right direction, but I just didn’t get any help from her. She is just yet another acquaintance who doesn’t have time for me.
I would like to find at least one person I can call a true best friend and ultimately find a woman who loves me for the caring, giving individual I am and I was hoping someone here could assist in guiding me in a direction that would make me happier.