byebyebeautyful
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I have a boyfriend. He doesn't trust me because I have abused his trust and he says lots of hurtful things and does many hurtful things often not intentionally its just his personality to be a bit of a dick and a hypocrite (constantly double standarding me, for example I am not allowed to miss his calls ever, but he can ignore mine for hours).
Problem: I love him! We have been together for 3 years now. Why? I dont KNOW! Im miserable but I cant let go either.
Also, this relationship is crushing me in several ways. I live 100 miles away from him and home. i have no friends at the university im attending...mainly because when I did make some friends at school, they were NOT ok because the friends I made were boys. The friends he is kinda ok with (friends from home) he pretty much never lets me see them because seeing them interferes with me seeing him. And no they cant hang together because he really ******* hates my friends from school.
Also, he is crushing my self-esteem. I am supposed to be studying right now but these things are always on my mind and it is getting harder to focus. My self esteem is in a ******* trash can. I dont even dress pretty anymore, I just dress like a bum.
Everyone tells me "JUST DUMP HIM" but it is not so easy considering that I love him and when I do say "hey its over" he always talks me out of it and that is not hard to do because I am not 100% convinced I should leave him to begin with.
Im trapped. Im sad and crushed but in love...and without him I have no one.
Problem: I love him! We have been together for 3 years now. Why? I dont KNOW! Im miserable but I cant let go either.
Also, this relationship is crushing me in several ways. I live 100 miles away from him and home. i have no friends at the university im attending...mainly because when I did make some friends at school, they were NOT ok because the friends I made were boys. The friends he is kinda ok with (friends from home) he pretty much never lets me see them because seeing them interferes with me seeing him. And no they cant hang together because he really ******* hates my friends from school.
Also, he is crushing my self-esteem. I am supposed to be studying right now but these things are always on my mind and it is getting harder to focus. My self esteem is in a ******* trash can. I dont even dress pretty anymore, I just dress like a bum.
Everyone tells me "JUST DUMP HIM" but it is not so easy considering that I love him and when I do say "hey its over" he always talks me out of it and that is not hard to do because I am not 100% convinced I should leave him to begin with.
Im trapped. Im sad and crushed but in love...and without him I have no one.