Hello. I am generally lonely, so I decided to make an account here.
I am male, 15 years old, and live in the United States. I have libertarian political ideas, and don't subscribe to any religion or spiritual/supernatural ideology.
My loneliness is caused by a variety of factors, all consolidated into one horrible hindrance of social interaction.
The number one reason being, that I simply dislike most people. Not in a hateful way, I just don't have an interest in them. I find them unintelligent and boring, with very simple interests and limited understanding of the world. Most people don't seem to care much for subjects or ideas, but instead focus only on gossip and events that are relevant to their repetitive everyday lives.
What's even more annoying, is that the majority of people seem to communicate with a façade of politeness and manners that prevents them from saying what they actually think. It makes conversations insincere and disingenuous. I find it annoying that people will hide their opinions and emotions, or completely lie just to protect someone else's feelings. This way, conversation loses its value.
My peers (as opposed to adults) are much better as far as the second problem goes, but are even worse when it comes to the first problem. They are way too glib, and totally lack any capability to be understanding of other people. Most of them don't particularly dislike me, but my relationship with them is very minimal. I am merely an acquaintance.
Also, while I do get a little anxious in social situations, I am not generally shy. However, when in the presence of my parents or teachers (or anyone else in authority), I don't express myself. I don't know precisely why, but I think its because I fear being punished or scolded for an action that they happen to dislike or disagree with. This definitely hampers my interactions with others, but I still continue to do it.
So basically, until I meet someone who is intelligent, interesting, brutally honest, opinionated, emotionally stable, and generally friendly, (or at least, the majority of these qualities) I will continue to be lonely. The internet will keep me somewhat sane for now, and I will certainly have a larger variety of people to choose from once I move out of this terrible rural community that I live in.
Any advice is appreciated.
That's enough whining
. I look forward to talking to the members here, and reading posts.
The username "crux" has no real meaning, I just like the way the word sounds.
I am male, 15 years old, and live in the United States. I have libertarian political ideas, and don't subscribe to any religion or spiritual/supernatural ideology.
My loneliness is caused by a variety of factors, all consolidated into one horrible hindrance of social interaction.
The number one reason being, that I simply dislike most people. Not in a hateful way, I just don't have an interest in them. I find them unintelligent and boring, with very simple interests and limited understanding of the world. Most people don't seem to care much for subjects or ideas, but instead focus only on gossip and events that are relevant to their repetitive everyday lives.
What's even more annoying, is that the majority of people seem to communicate with a façade of politeness and manners that prevents them from saying what they actually think. It makes conversations insincere and disingenuous. I find it annoying that people will hide their opinions and emotions, or completely lie just to protect someone else's feelings. This way, conversation loses its value.
My peers (as opposed to adults) are much better as far as the second problem goes, but are even worse when it comes to the first problem. They are way too glib, and totally lack any capability to be understanding of other people. Most of them don't particularly dislike me, but my relationship with them is very minimal. I am merely an acquaintance.
Also, while I do get a little anxious in social situations, I am not generally shy. However, when in the presence of my parents or teachers (or anyone else in authority), I don't express myself. I don't know precisely why, but I think its because I fear being punished or scolded for an action that they happen to dislike or disagree with. This definitely hampers my interactions with others, but I still continue to do it.
So basically, until I meet someone who is intelligent, interesting, brutally honest, opinionated, emotionally stable, and generally friendly, (or at least, the majority of these qualities) I will continue to be lonely. The internet will keep me somewhat sane for now, and I will certainly have a larger variety of people to choose from once I move out of this terrible rural community that I live in.
Any advice is appreciated.
That's enough whining
. I look forward to talking to the members here, and reading posts.The username "crux" has no real meaning, I just like the way the word sounds.
