deirdre said:
sometimes i am in a mindless haze, one day melting into another so much so that I can't even tell when the weekend comes or the new week begins..... i lose total track of time passing....
wow me too. i always get asked when things happened, and i never know. i dont have a schedule. i go to bed whenever, stay up all night sometimes, sleep only a couple hours, or come home and crash and sleep. its just random. i dont really know what happened at a certain time on a certain day because like you said, my days sort of become one big haze and i cant tell what happened when.
deirdre said:
basic requirements for most human beings....make a living so that you can eat, subsist, and yes, thrive.
i dont take care of myself either, really. my husband does. i go to school but he pays all the bills, goes to work and all that. sometimes i wonder if i even want to take care of myself. i think i go to school because i feel more socially accepted. but really, if i was true to myself, i think id be content doing nothing. but not nothing exactly. id rather just relax. i used to be able to do that. i had a job on the weekends and i lived with my mom. i had enough money to pay for a cell phone, gas for my car, and good. but that was it. but i was happy. i had all week to do whatever i wanted. it was awesome.
so anyway, what i was wondering is, do you think you really want to have a job and all that? or do you just feel the social pressure?
Lawrens said:
During college I dealt with it better by setting up a routine where I'd wake up extra early and go jogging...Also I'm usually too tired to worry too much after I jog, and it kind of ease up my mind a little
ya, i know i need to start working out again. i wish i had the motivation to get up really early and go to the gym. i really should. it really does ease my stress level when i do that. its just that i have to go all the way down to my school. i cant work out at my place because there are no side walks here and people drive recklessly. eh. but im just making excuses. hopefully in the next week or so i can start going to the gym. i know itd do wonders for my anxiety.
viviana said:
yesterday i wanted to work with these girls, but one of them was like, nooo i don't want you to come up here
which made me mad, so i tell them its all good. it's not like u know what you doing anyway, and don't ask me for honeysuckle anymore
wow well, luckily i dont fight with anyone. that would be even worse.
the class was stressful again, as usual. and the weird thing is its not like i dont know anyone in the class, or like i havent ever talked to anyone in the class. i know quite a number of people. but for some very bizarre reason i feel isolated in that class.
i have a class on fridays that's even more stressful. in that class i dont know anyone, and its a tutorial class that encourages talking and socializing. it seems like everyone has their group and im the odd man out. i left last week because i was sitting, alone, at a long row of desks, and all the other rows were filled up with people and their friends. everyone was talking and laughing and there i was just sitting alone at a long row of desks. that was just too much. i had to leave. i probably missed out on some information that would have helped, but i just couldnt handle it.