So it finally comes to this for me. Im not here for any encouragement, that time is past. Why do women treat me this way? Everytime I let one in it bites me. Everytime I start to think, maybe Im gonna be ok or things are going well, something happens to bring me back to reality. I have friends and I like them but Im empty. Im 27 now and I just want to have a family get married and have kids like everyone else. I want a women that I can imagine ten years in the future and still love her to pieces. I treat you just the way I should. The way the Ex boyfriends I have heard about never did. Just the way most of the women I have talked to claim to want. Everyday another lesson, everyday another failure. The meme forever alone really hits home because I am.
So I am finished with it all. Done trying and failing. Done listening to the people who say...stick it out it will get better or you just gotta keep trying! I have 2 fingers holding onto the cliff and Im ready to just let go and fall. I hope I do go to hell because I deserve to be there. Im selfish for wanting to be happy, selfish for expecting the smallest kindness, selfish for wanting to be treated like a human being.
I just wanted a reason. A reason to shave, a reason to be better, a reason to keep surviving a world that so clearly hates me. Oh dont worry Im not killing myself, if I had the balls to do that I would have been dead so many fruitless years ago. So I will endure and die alone in this world. Family isnt enough, friends arent enough. I see so much happiness around me it makes me want to vomit knowing I'll never have a part in it.
Thats all ladies, you have broken this man for good this time. All the kings horses and all the kings men couldnt put Tony's fractured life back together again.
So I am finished with it all. Done trying and failing. Done listening to the people who say...stick it out it will get better or you just gotta keep trying! I have 2 fingers holding onto the cliff and Im ready to just let go and fall. I hope I do go to hell because I deserve to be there. Im selfish for wanting to be happy, selfish for expecting the smallest kindness, selfish for wanting to be treated like a human being.
I just wanted a reason. A reason to shave, a reason to be better, a reason to keep surviving a world that so clearly hates me. Oh dont worry Im not killing myself, if I had the balls to do that I would have been dead so many fruitless years ago. So I will endure and die alone in this world. Family isnt enough, friends arent enough. I see so much happiness around me it makes me want to vomit knowing I'll never have a part in it.
Thats all ladies, you have broken this man for good this time. All the kings horses and all the kings men couldnt put Tony's fractured life back together again.