Hello everybody , im a guy and i have a problem from my childhood it started..
I was a school learning guy i got grades from 5-6 for the first 4-5 years , i was introverted from early childhood then in some periods i had friends , then we lose contact , i don't know what's wrong with me maybe because of the parents they were not enough supportive but always being too serious and sometimes abusive and making threats... when i become 5th grade things got worse i stopped learning , started losing my best friend then others from the neighborhood , and till today i was talking with a lot of people but i can't seem to keep em , i am really scared if a new person meets me then something bad will happen and i will be lonely again... it's like a curse or something , i want to improve myself , i feel like if i go out and try to approach a girl or boy (ok if it's a boy i can ask him something about computers or job or whatever) , but when its a girl i dont know how to befriend her , online it's easier because i know what to say and do but in real person im afraid because of the rejection and i just pass away so much opportunities... i wish i was more outgoing and extroverted but i am not.. my main problem i think is with 2 things (im scared of befriending people and getting new friends , and keeping them) , also i don't know why but i feel like sometimes i disturb people when i all wanna do is have fun with them.
I used to have friends last year , but this year i try and try and try making in real person a few times and with girls i can't seem to get a girlfriend ... it was easier last year , and the 2 years before that! But this year is not what i wanted to be
Any advice or something would be helpful
I was a school learning guy i got grades from 5-6 for the first 4-5 years , i was introverted from early childhood then in some periods i had friends , then we lose contact , i don't know what's wrong with me maybe because of the parents they were not enough supportive but always being too serious and sometimes abusive and making threats... when i become 5th grade things got worse i stopped learning , started losing my best friend then others from the neighborhood , and till today i was talking with a lot of people but i can't seem to keep em , i am really scared if a new person meets me then something bad will happen and i will be lonely again... it's like a curse or something , i want to improve myself , i feel like if i go out and try to approach a girl or boy (ok if it's a boy i can ask him something about computers or job or whatever) , but when its a girl i dont know how to befriend her , online it's easier because i know what to say and do but in real person im afraid because of the rejection and i just pass away so much opportunities... i wish i was more outgoing and extroverted but i am not.. my main problem i think is with 2 things (im scared of befriending people and getting new friends , and keeping them) , also i don't know why but i feel like sometimes i disturb people when i all wanna do is have fun with them.
I used to have friends last year , but this year i try and try and try making in real person a few times and with girls i can't seem to get a girlfriend ... it was easier last year , and the 2 years before that! But this year is not what i wanted to be
Any advice or something would be helpful