I've been feeling very depressed for the past week or so. I didn't know what to do, I've been miserable and confused, but then I found this site. So I decided to make an account..
I am 17 years old and painfully shy with this kind of thing.
I've recently learned that I am a very funny, likable, and unique person. But I have no real friends whatsoever. I have no friends to go to for my problems, or anyone to hang out with OUTSIDE of school. It's not even that I'm unpopular either. I get along very well with most of my peers, I can never reach that level of friendship that can work outside of school. I look forward to going to school just for the people most of the time. I've never had a best friend.
I have a boyfriend, but I primarily see him on Saturdays. My emotions are so out of whack that I can't properly express my love for him right now. He just came back from a week vacation in Florida and I feel shy around him.
I am scared to ask my mother out often if I can go out sometimes, because I feel like she'll scold me or complain or make me feel uncomfortable for asking, because she's done that in the past. But then she complains when I stay in the house everyday. I just avoid her altogether.
I have a blog on tumblr, hoping to share everyday experiences with other people and make friends while I'm at it. But after a year, I get the feeling that no one even reads it. I feel like I've wasted so much time. And hope.
I am very sorry if I typed too much. I just needed to vent.
All I really want are some real friends. So .. hi.
I am 17 years old and painfully shy with this kind of thing.
I've recently learned that I am a very funny, likable, and unique person. But I have no real friends whatsoever. I have no friends to go to for my problems, or anyone to hang out with OUTSIDE of school. It's not even that I'm unpopular either. I get along very well with most of my peers, I can never reach that level of friendship that can work outside of school. I look forward to going to school just for the people most of the time. I've never had a best friend.
I have a boyfriend, but I primarily see him on Saturdays. My emotions are so out of whack that I can't properly express my love for him right now. He just came back from a week vacation in Florida and I feel shy around him.
I am scared to ask my mother out often if I can go out sometimes, because I feel like she'll scold me or complain or make me feel uncomfortable for asking, because she's done that in the past. But then she complains when I stay in the house everyday. I just avoid her altogether.
I have a blog on tumblr, hoping to share everyday experiences with other people and make friends while I'm at it. But after a year, I get the feeling that no one even reads it. I feel like I've wasted so much time. And hope.
I am very sorry if I typed too much. I just needed to vent.
All I really want are some real friends. So .. hi.
