Hello from another Brit

[maggiemae]

Just wanted to say hi to everyone and introduce myself. Im Maggiemae, Im 40 and have been a loner most of my life. Its not who I want to be but its who I am and Im still trying to come to terms with it at 40. Its seems to be just one more thing to add to my list of personality disorders, along with AVPD, Fixed Fantasies, obsessive thoughts, anxiety, depression etc etc.

My 3 kids and my best friend keep me from becoming a total recluse. Social situations are a struggle and over the years have become a chore, rather than something that should be enjoyable. Socialising just doesnt come naturally to me. Although I can hold my own for an hour or so, any longer leaves me feeling exhausted and drained. Parties scare the sh*t out of me and extended periods of socialising are a no-no. One to One socialising is a constant source of anxiety which has led to me not dating for nearly four years as its too mentally and emotionally draining.

So... "here I go again on my own, going down the only road Ive ever known". I think those lyrics were written for me

Anyway, Hi to everyone, hope you are all well and I look forward to chatting to you all on the forum

x

 

[PoWer2tHePeOpLE]

Hello

 

[Naval_Fluff]

Hi, welcome to ALL! Glad you joined

 

[Nyktimos]

Welcome maggiemae. Sorry to hear of your loneliness and problems. I hope you find comfort here.

 

[Minus]

Welcome

 

[Steel]

Hey, and welcome (from another fellow brit).... and kudos for quoting Whitesnake

 

[evanescencefan91]

hi maggiemae welcome to the forum

i had to look up a few things on wiki
avpd and fixed fantasies

but i completely understand what you mean with them

i've probably got some fixed fantasis too

what don't look at me like that

does it look like i really have anything better to do than have inner conversations with an imaginary ninja and rabbit



it's great for boring classes or when i can't sleep
(but i know they're not real so it's okay)


i seem to have the same the same one hour time limit

when i go over to family functions and dinners
i am very pleasant for the first hour or so,

but then i just want to get out of there

bein lonely sucks

but i hope you can find solutions or maybe some comfort in knowing you're not alone in being alone



*hugs*

 

[Punisher]

Hi maggiemae, and welcome

 

[DayvanCowboy]

Hello maggiemae

 

[Zak]

Hey Maggiemae. Welcome to the forum

 

[loketron]

ello!

 

[maggiemae]

Thanks everyone for the warm welcome, it really is appreciated

Evanenscence - Ive been researching fixed fantasies on the internet and I was surprised how many other people have these fantasies as well. For years I thought I was alone and a grade-A fruit loop. I still think Im a fruit-loop......just not as much as I had originally thought

 

[Sara]

Hi welcome Maggiemae