I would like to say hello and wish everyone a Happy New Year!!!
I would like to say a few words starting with an introduction and ending with a question.
I am 30, have a good job, few cars, savings, good taste in music, am In good fit shape, love biking, cars, any outdoor activities, can cook, dance, speak 3 languages, tennis, swimming, skiing, guitar..... do it all pretty good. Cook too
I have been a loaner ever since I was a young kid. Once I hit 20, and got me a girlfriend that stuck around for a long time, car, a job, and some friends, most of whom were just good to hang out with, drink party and such.
I always knew that my circle of friends was artificial in every way, but I went along for the ride enjoying it.
Well, the relationship with a girl, and a few others failed and I found myself single, by choice. I stopped socializing with friends I don't care for anymore and found myself pretty much alone, with just a few buddies to hang out with in association with my hobbies (drives, car shows, hiking and camping).
I no longer trust anyone and pretty much gave up on love. THIS USED TO bother me a lot and would depress the life out of me. I got me a small puppy and he is 3 now and is the center of my life.
I have loving parents who I love dearly, but it hurts them seeing me like this. I already accepted the fact that this is my life. I might not be able to find a woman I would marry, or have kids and such. Or have 20 friends at my B day.
I socialize with people ok, even better after a few drinks, but I prefer to be left alone and not have to deal with peoples crap. Talking to people itself is a drain for me, even though I enjoy a good debate with a friend or a colleague. While it does hurt from time to time, I try to keep myself busy as much as possible to get away from it all. Its when I stop is when sadness kicks in.
Question is, with such pattern, where will I be in 10 years? What comes next?? What is the next stage???
I would like to say a few words starting with an introduction and ending with a question.
I am 30, have a good job, few cars, savings, good taste in music, am In good fit shape, love biking, cars, any outdoor activities, can cook, dance, speak 3 languages, tennis, swimming, skiing, guitar..... do it all pretty good. Cook too
I have been a loaner ever since I was a young kid. Once I hit 20, and got me a girlfriend that stuck around for a long time, car, a job, and some friends, most of whom were just good to hang out with, drink party and such.
I always knew that my circle of friends was artificial in every way, but I went along for the ride enjoying it.
Well, the relationship with a girl, and a few others failed and I found myself single, by choice. I stopped socializing with friends I don't care for anymore and found myself pretty much alone, with just a few buddies to hang out with in association with my hobbies (drives, car shows, hiking and camping).
I no longer trust anyone and pretty much gave up on love. THIS USED TO bother me a lot and would depress the life out of me. I got me a small puppy and he is 3 now and is the center of my life.
I have loving parents who I love dearly, but it hurts them seeing me like this. I already accepted the fact that this is my life. I might not be able to find a woman I would marry, or have kids and such. Or have 20 friends at my B day.
I socialize with people ok, even better after a few drinks, but I prefer to be left alone and not have to deal with peoples crap. Talking to people itself is a drain for me, even though I enjoy a good debate with a friend or a colleague. While it does hurt from time to time, I try to keep myself busy as much as possible to get away from it all. Its when I stop is when sadness kicks in.
Question is, with such pattern, where will I be in 10 years? What comes next?? What is the next stage???
