Renegade
Member
Hi there, I was just looking for a place to talk and discuss topics with people about all sorts of things.
I've not really been feeling depressed lately i just feel like I'm not really alive...just existing. The usual story of, I get up, go to work, feel half asleep all day, go home, spend time with girlfriend, back to sleep, and then repeat. The weekends seem to last no time at all, and too be honest seem just as pointless as the rest of it. Right now I'm sat here in work staring out the shop window at all the people and cars going past thinking to myself "****, is this really it".
I mean, I don't "hate" my job its something I've been wanting to do for most my life and now I've got it i'm happy i'm not doing something i don't enjoy, but at the same time there are so many negatives its hard to drag myself out of bed every morning, and im sure i make these problems worse in my head by over thinking everything.
Then there's my girlfriend...I love her more than anything, but at the same time i feel like I'm going insane trying to please her all the time, I've not done anything for myself for...well...like 6 months, and it still doesn't seem like enough. Most the time everything seems fine, then suddenly she will make me out to be this bad guy who's never around and doesn't care, and that I'm a liar and she can't trust me, it makes me think to my self why do I even bother? I spend the majority of my money taking us out to places, getting food, just buying small gifts from time to time, I love her but am i really happy? Im scared to answer that question too be honest.
Well...that's a small amount of whats going on in my life right now...I hope to get involved with these forums and talk to many new people.
See you around...
I've not really been feeling depressed lately i just feel like I'm not really alive...just existing. The usual story of, I get up, go to work, feel half asleep all day, go home, spend time with girlfriend, back to sleep, and then repeat. The weekends seem to last no time at all, and too be honest seem just as pointless as the rest of it. Right now I'm sat here in work staring out the shop window at all the people and cars going past thinking to myself "****, is this really it".
I mean, I don't "hate" my job its something I've been wanting to do for most my life and now I've got it i'm happy i'm not doing something i don't enjoy, but at the same time there are so many negatives its hard to drag myself out of bed every morning, and im sure i make these problems worse in my head by over thinking everything.
Then there's my girlfriend...I love her more than anything, but at the same time i feel like I'm going insane trying to please her all the time, I've not done anything for myself for...well...like 6 months, and it still doesn't seem like enough. Most the time everything seems fine, then suddenly she will make me out to be this bad guy who's never around and doesn't care, and that I'm a liar and she can't trust me, it makes me think to my self why do I even bother? I spend the majority of my money taking us out to places, getting food, just buying small gifts from time to time, I love her but am i really happy? Im scared to answer that question too be honest.
Well...that's a small amount of whats going on in my life right now...I hope to get involved with these forums and talk to many new people.
See you around...
