Eternal_Ineptitude
Member
Hi everybody,
I feel quite embarrassed typing this but I feel I need to make a change. I'm 26 years old (very nearly 27), live in the uk and I must admit I'm feeling more and more isolated, I need to reach out to people.
I don't know where I fit in, both here and in the world in general and sometimes it feels so frustrating trying to work out what to do about it. I go to work everyday (apart from days I don't - obv) and I get on ok with the people there but everything is work based I have no common interests. I just spend my evenings on my own, and I'm finding it harder and harder to entertain myself, going to bed at 9 because there's nothing else to do is pretty rubbish. I find it so demoralising having only myself to talk to about the problems in my life but I feel so guilty trying to impose them on other people, trapped is the only way i can describe it. I’ve been on anti-depressants for nearly 5 years but the only people that know are those that have prescribed them to me, which feels quite sad to me.
Sorry about all of that, it's quite maudlin and I'm not generally like that, I'm one of those extroverted introverts, I'm quite outgoing seeming in real life but once anything brushes past the surface i clam up and find it excruciatingly hard to express my inner self properly. Does anyone else find this? That they're ok at small talk but once anything elevates past this that they're flailing around hopelessly in a sea of uncertainty? Or am I alone in that as well?
Sorry for being depressing,
R
I feel quite embarrassed typing this but I feel I need to make a change. I'm 26 years old (very nearly 27), live in the uk and I must admit I'm feeling more and more isolated, I need to reach out to people.
I don't know where I fit in, both here and in the world in general and sometimes it feels so frustrating trying to work out what to do about it. I go to work everyday (apart from days I don't - obv) and I get on ok with the people there but everything is work based I have no common interests. I just spend my evenings on my own, and I'm finding it harder and harder to entertain myself, going to bed at 9 because there's nothing else to do is pretty rubbish. I find it so demoralising having only myself to talk to about the problems in my life but I feel so guilty trying to impose them on other people, trapped is the only way i can describe it. I’ve been on anti-depressants for nearly 5 years but the only people that know are those that have prescribed them to me, which feels quite sad to me.
Sorry about all of that, it's quite maudlin and I'm not generally like that, I'm one of those extroverted introverts, I'm quite outgoing seeming in real life but once anything brushes past the surface i clam up and find it excruciatingly hard to express my inner self properly. Does anyone else find this? That they're ok at small talk but once anything elevates past this that they're flailing around hopelessly in a sea of uncertainty? Or am I alone in that as well?
Sorry for being depressing,
R