Alone in the dark
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Hi ! I am a 29 old dude who lives in Denmark.
I weight a average body and i hate comment my look, but im just looking normal.
I dont know were to start or end, but here goes.
I am getting close to my round 30 years "20 nov" and i dont have any real friends. There was a time when i had few from the 10th grade school
who i was gaming and drinking with, then i found a girlfriend at my 18 age, but that only lasted 3 years. In that time these few friends have moved on today with ther girlfriends,babies,houses,cars and other interrest...Im not envy here, but just telling why i feel lonley. I still have a small family seperated tho.
I only know people were i live but i rarely have anything to do with em.
and i can also walk down the shopping streets and meet people that my bro know or people that somehow knows who i am. But again..No real close friends. I live close up to a well traficated crossroad, were i look out the window each day and wonder were all these people are going, because it must be more fun than what i am doing alone in my small apartment. That including gaming and movie/serie watching.
Lately i have been thinking and reading about lonelyness, It hurts to wake up each day and think "oh hell im alone again" :/
Thats is why i am looking forward to each smallest "day event"
Like tomorrow im getting my hair cut, or i must go to my bank or going to a junk food place. because there i know i will see people.
I tryed to see a shrink to talk about it and he suggested i get more out, but in my case i dont do any sports or have any interrest in that area.
And a shrink cant give you any freinds out of his hands. So i quit that.
At the moment i dont have any job, but i am at the wellfare system hands, so they will find something for me to work with. But that is not how i wish to end up being a lonley nobody working as a slave for the wellfare system.
I do still like to game on my pc, usualy i play games like world of warcraft, because that sometimes mellows out the lonleyness, but not in the long shot.
I tryed several dating sites, because i seek a girlfriend, but because i mostly are alone in the dark, then i start to focus more and more on other peoples bad sides rather than good sides. Resulting in i end up single again. And sometimes its the other way around with the girls i meet. So im tired of chasing the golden ticket. Now i dont do any dating sites. Also because my lonley mood is killing me slowly inside. So i dont feel any joy.
I would hope to "meet" other people also dealing with some kind of lonelyness, because i dont think anyone choose to be lonley. Because lonelyness choose you to be lonly and it is a critical state to be in leading to very bad ideas. :/
I hope my grammar is making some point at readable.
I weight a average body and i hate comment my look, but im just looking normal.
I dont know were to start or end, but here goes.
I am getting close to my round 30 years "20 nov" and i dont have any real friends. There was a time when i had few from the 10th grade school
who i was gaming and drinking with, then i found a girlfriend at my 18 age, but that only lasted 3 years. In that time these few friends have moved on today with ther girlfriends,babies,houses,cars and other interrest...Im not envy here, but just telling why i feel lonley. I still have a small family seperated tho.
I only know people were i live but i rarely have anything to do with em.
and i can also walk down the shopping streets and meet people that my bro know or people that somehow knows who i am. But again..No real close friends. I live close up to a well traficated crossroad, were i look out the window each day and wonder were all these people are going, because it must be more fun than what i am doing alone in my small apartment. That including gaming and movie/serie watching.
Lately i have been thinking and reading about lonelyness, It hurts to wake up each day and think "oh hell im alone again" :/
Thats is why i am looking forward to each smallest "day event"
Like tomorrow im getting my hair cut, or i must go to my bank or going to a junk food place. because there i know i will see people.
I tryed to see a shrink to talk about it and he suggested i get more out, but in my case i dont do any sports or have any interrest in that area.
And a shrink cant give you any freinds out of his hands. So i quit that.
At the moment i dont have any job, but i am at the wellfare system hands, so they will find something for me to work with. But that is not how i wish to end up being a lonley nobody working as a slave for the wellfare system.
I do still like to game on my pc, usualy i play games like world of warcraft, because that sometimes mellows out the lonleyness, but not in the long shot.
I tryed several dating sites, because i seek a girlfriend, but because i mostly are alone in the dark, then i start to focus more and more on other peoples bad sides rather than good sides. Resulting in i end up single again. And sometimes its the other way around with the girls i meet. So im tired of chasing the golden ticket. Now i dont do any dating sites. Also because my lonley mood is killing me slowly inside. So i dont feel any joy.
I would hope to "meet" other people also dealing with some kind of lonelyness, because i dont think anyone choose to be lonley. Because lonelyness choose you to be lonly and it is a critical state to be in leading to very bad ideas. :/
I hope my grammar is making some point at readable.
