Hi Everyone,
I'm new to the site and thought it best to introduce myself. I chose RockGirl as my username because of the music I listen to. I'm into bands like Disturbed, In this Moment, Alter Bridge, etc.
I'm here because I have found in the past few years that I feel so disconnected from everyone around me. As the years have gone by, I have felt myself just disconnect from people, family and friends. Without even being sure why, I just feel very alone, misunderstood and like many others on this site...like I'm in funk.
I look around me and everyone seems so engaged in their lives, so happy. I have people in my life, but truthfully don't feel like they give a **** about me. I feel very much on my own.
I decided to join this site, so I could talk to people who could understand and relate to what I'm feeling. I feel like I'm just going through life. Other people seem to be 'living'...I seem to be existing or surviving.
I don't mean this vain, but I'm a pretty woman. If you saw me you would never realize the loneliness I feel inside. But being attractive doesn't seem to help.
What do you do when you get to the point, that you just kind of give up? Things that used interest you, don't anymore. You just don't even want to try. I have found myself just wanting to stay home and hide. I don't really understand why I feel the way I feel. I just know that it is incredibly lonely and isolating.
Yet, instead of it getting better, I find myself pushing more in the direction of just being alone.
I try to stay connected with family and friends, but truthfully it feels fake and forced. Usually after attending an event, I leave feeling sad because I'm just not connecting.
I've been through divorce. I don't have children. My family is dysfunctional. Perhaps, this are root causes that have lead me to where I am, but I don't want to get caught up in all that.
All I know, is that I want to feel better. I want to enjoy my life. I want to stop looking at other people and wishing I could be happy like they seem to be.
I want most of all to be happy and to enjoy my life.
I feel lost, alone, afraid and most of all I have no idea how to get out of feeling these things.
What do you do when your lost and somehow in living your own life...you've lost yourself? What do you do?
I apologize if my intro seems heavy. I believe in being up front and honest and this is my truth right now. It's ugly and I hate it, but this is me and this is why I'm here.
Thank you for reading this and if you can offer insight, please share. Someone please tell me I'm not the only one who feels this way!
rockgirl[/size][/font]
I'm new to the site and thought it best to introduce myself. I chose RockGirl as my username because of the music I listen to. I'm into bands like Disturbed, In this Moment, Alter Bridge, etc.
I'm here because I have found in the past few years that I feel so disconnected from everyone around me. As the years have gone by, I have felt myself just disconnect from people, family and friends. Without even being sure why, I just feel very alone, misunderstood and like many others on this site...like I'm in funk.
I look around me and everyone seems so engaged in their lives, so happy. I have people in my life, but truthfully don't feel like they give a **** about me. I feel very much on my own.
I decided to join this site, so I could talk to people who could understand and relate to what I'm feeling. I feel like I'm just going through life. Other people seem to be 'living'...I seem to be existing or surviving.
I don't mean this vain, but I'm a pretty woman. If you saw me you would never realize the loneliness I feel inside. But being attractive doesn't seem to help.
What do you do when you get to the point, that you just kind of give up? Things that used interest you, don't anymore. You just don't even want to try. I have found myself just wanting to stay home and hide. I don't really understand why I feel the way I feel. I just know that it is incredibly lonely and isolating.
Yet, instead of it getting better, I find myself pushing more in the direction of just being alone.
I try to stay connected with family and friends, but truthfully it feels fake and forced. Usually after attending an event, I leave feeling sad because I'm just not connecting.
I've been through divorce. I don't have children. My family is dysfunctional. Perhaps, this are root causes that have lead me to where I am, but I don't want to get caught up in all that.
All I know, is that I want to feel better. I want to enjoy my life. I want to stop looking at other people and wishing I could be happy like they seem to be.
I want most of all to be happy and to enjoy my life.
I feel lost, alone, afraid and most of all I have no idea how to get out of feeling these things.
What do you do when your lost and somehow in living your own life...you've lost yourself? What do you do?
I apologize if my intro seems heavy. I believe in being up front and honest and this is my truth right now. It's ugly and I hate it, but this is me and this is why I'm here.
Thank you for reading this and if you can offer insight, please share. Someone please tell me I'm not the only one who feels this way!
rockgirl[/size][/font]
