The-One
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To save those who just want the shortest overview to read through all of that, I will simply state my path below. However, I do hope it's sufficiently captivating that you will actually read through the whole post
I will be having cosmetic surgery, doing bodybuilding, having sex with lots of girls, building confidence, working on a social persona so in 2-3 years time, I am well prepared to become a Male Escort. Basically a prostitute.
A couple of things about me in short, yes I have posted various stuff like this in other threads, but a short recap.
What am I about? I am lonely (duh), asian, and at university. Made no friends at university and had the unpleasant experience of being hit by a car in with no one to help in the aftermath. Never had a girlfriend, have never been comfortable with my looks and asianess or social situation.
What's been happening from 2009? Well starting from last year, I made the decision to embark upon cosmetic surgery. The groundworks of medical preparation and consultations with surgeons were completed in summer 2009. Why? In short, I have never been comfortable with my looks and ethnicity and it shadows my entire life, being mocked for 5 years in school probably had something to do with it. Now at university, everytime you go out, everything's on photo and posted on facebook, every venue is intended to be sexualised, meant to bring the boy and girl together and f*ck. Of course, to someone uncomfortable with their looks, a nightmare.
How 2010 is going to go. So, I have already started orthodontic braces, I have just embarked on a a bodybuilding programme with aim of gaining 1-2 stones. In the summer, I will fly to Seoul, South Korea to have the "asian double eyelid surgery", as well as rhinoplasty. After braces is finished in october. I will fly to Eastern Europe for further dental works like whitening and veneers. Will also have laser treatment on skin at some as yet undecided location.
Completion. I intend for all physical enhancements to be completed by December of this year, 2010.
Further psychological and skills enhancement. After that is complete. I will again rent a prostitute/escort, this time however for several sessions to practise the mechanics of kissing and f*cking, as well as small things like touching, holding, undoing bras quickly etc. It's training, not pleasure. And will be important so the next segment goes as smoothly as possible.
After that, I will attend a workshop for "Pick-Up Artists". This is where you have a trainer helping you in clubs etc to pick up girls. Read "The Game" by Neil Strauss for an overview. Obviously, you pick up those girls to have sex, then move on. Hence I need to be already well versed in the mechanics of sex.
Completion. Psychological enhancements should be completed in 2 month time from Dec 2010 to Jan 2011.
Yes, this is going to be a lot of effort and money, but I have planned for a long time and I am willing to sacrifice everything. Things are on track, and more gears will be kicking in all the time to further the project and there are failsafes in place to ensure it's completion.
What's for 2011 & 2012? I should have moved on to my next degree. It's important that I stay in university. I do not want to start working just yet. I want and need the university environment.
I will now have 2 more years at university, 2011 & 2012. For those 2 years, I plan to live like one should always have done. Drinking, f*cking and going out. In the period, I plan to sleep with as many different girls as possible. I will also need to try some relationships on for size and experience, then dump them by the wayside.
What else for 2011 & 2012? Since my body will now be physically beautiful and as best as I will ever look. I will need to use my looks, both for psychological satisfaction, and to pay the debt I will have incurred in my enhancement procedures.
Starting with modelling, I have always wanted to be recognised as beautiful. Then PR for various entertainment venues, for money and for comparative satisfaction. Then dancing and drama interest groups/classes, this is so I am comfortable in moving my body and becoming less deadpan. To overcome a lifetime of learnt physical stance and movement because those ways were developed when I was a pathetic lonely loser, not after completion of my physical and psychological enhancement procedures where I will be a winner.
And what else? I have already started learning foreign languages in preparation for travels in 2 years time. It will make me a more interesting and relaxed person.
What is NOT my endgoal? It's not to get a girlfriend, get married, have 2.4 children and live happily ever after with a dog in a country house driving a Volvo. That's so boring and cliched.
So what IS my endgoal?To be an escort/prostitute. Just like those prostitutes I first had sex with to get rid my virginity and afterwards. Of course, I will also branch into other areas of adult entertainment, such as stripping (bodybuilding in 2010 carried forward with dancing classes in 2011 is preparing for this). Or models in fetish pornography, though that's more for my own personal satisfaction.
Male escorts is a growing trend. Google that, or search "majestic escorts". As is the growing trend in women paying for sex.
But really, my life ambition is to be nothing more than an glorified sex object. All the girls I will have been with is what's going to prepare me for this path. My confidence building, my bodybuilding, all leading towards this.
Absolution, Deliverance, Vindication. To be a wanted sex object by being a sex worker is my ABSOLUTION? How? It absolves my sadness and worthlessness. People will pay $$ to f*ck you, you're worth something!!
It grants me DELIVERANCE from my past. How? No longer will I be that lone skinny asian skulking in the corner trying to avoid being mocked by his peers. No longer that awkward guy in the bar. Everything I will have done to prepare in being an escort will pave a new future and burn the past.
And there can be no greater VINDICATION in life from going from once when you were that pathetic and weak teenager weeping because the only girl you liked but never liked you back moved away from having white women (I have a problem with my ethnicity, said that already) to pay you $$ for sexual and other services because you are physically fit and by then feeling golden.
Commentary. 1) This is not a troll post, I am deadly serious. Things have been in motion since last year.
2) Sorry for the rambling style, I need to sleep soon, lectures tomorrow
3) It's obvious that honeysuckle's happened in my life, this path was not choosen flippantly
4) Everyone here presumably have a plan on beating their current predicament. This is mine, and I hope you respect that.
5) I trust that at the very least, you've read something novel and rethink your path forward.
Thank you for reading.
I will be having cosmetic surgery, doing bodybuilding, having sex with lots of girls, building confidence, working on a social persona so in 2-3 years time, I am well prepared to become a Male Escort. Basically a prostitute.
A couple of things about me in short, yes I have posted various stuff like this in other threads, but a short recap.
What am I about? I am lonely (duh), asian, and at university. Made no friends at university and had the unpleasant experience of being hit by a car in with no one to help in the aftermath. Never had a girlfriend, have never been comfortable with my looks and asianess or social situation.
What's been happening from 2009? Well starting from last year, I made the decision to embark upon cosmetic surgery. The groundworks of medical preparation and consultations with surgeons were completed in summer 2009. Why? In short, I have never been comfortable with my looks and ethnicity and it shadows my entire life, being mocked for 5 years in school probably had something to do with it. Now at university, everytime you go out, everything's on photo and posted on facebook, every venue is intended to be sexualised, meant to bring the boy and girl together and f*ck. Of course, to someone uncomfortable with their looks, a nightmare.
How 2010 is going to go. So, I have already started orthodontic braces, I have just embarked on a a bodybuilding programme with aim of gaining 1-2 stones. In the summer, I will fly to Seoul, South Korea to have the "asian double eyelid surgery", as well as rhinoplasty. After braces is finished in october. I will fly to Eastern Europe for further dental works like whitening and veneers. Will also have laser treatment on skin at some as yet undecided location.
Completion. I intend for all physical enhancements to be completed by December of this year, 2010.
Further psychological and skills enhancement. After that is complete. I will again rent a prostitute/escort, this time however for several sessions to practise the mechanics of kissing and f*cking, as well as small things like touching, holding, undoing bras quickly etc. It's training, not pleasure. And will be important so the next segment goes as smoothly as possible.
After that, I will attend a workshop for "Pick-Up Artists". This is where you have a trainer helping you in clubs etc to pick up girls. Read "The Game" by Neil Strauss for an overview. Obviously, you pick up those girls to have sex, then move on. Hence I need to be already well versed in the mechanics of sex.
Completion. Psychological enhancements should be completed in 2 month time from Dec 2010 to Jan 2011.
Yes, this is going to be a lot of effort and money, but I have planned for a long time and I am willing to sacrifice everything. Things are on track, and more gears will be kicking in all the time to further the project and there are failsafes in place to ensure it's completion.
What's for 2011 & 2012? I should have moved on to my next degree. It's important that I stay in university. I do not want to start working just yet. I want and need the university environment.
I will now have 2 more years at university, 2011 & 2012. For those 2 years, I plan to live like one should always have done. Drinking, f*cking and going out. In the period, I plan to sleep with as many different girls as possible. I will also need to try some relationships on for size and experience, then dump them by the wayside.
What else for 2011 & 2012? Since my body will now be physically beautiful and as best as I will ever look. I will need to use my looks, both for psychological satisfaction, and to pay the debt I will have incurred in my enhancement procedures.
Starting with modelling, I have always wanted to be recognised as beautiful. Then PR for various entertainment venues, for money and for comparative satisfaction. Then dancing and drama interest groups/classes, this is so I am comfortable in moving my body and becoming less deadpan. To overcome a lifetime of learnt physical stance and movement because those ways were developed when I was a pathetic lonely loser, not after completion of my physical and psychological enhancement procedures where I will be a winner.
And what else? I have already started learning foreign languages in preparation for travels in 2 years time. It will make me a more interesting and relaxed person.
What is NOT my endgoal? It's not to get a girlfriend, get married, have 2.4 children and live happily ever after with a dog in a country house driving a Volvo. That's so boring and cliched.
So what IS my endgoal?To be an escort/prostitute. Just like those prostitutes I first had sex with to get rid my virginity and afterwards. Of course, I will also branch into other areas of adult entertainment, such as stripping (bodybuilding in 2010 carried forward with dancing classes in 2011 is preparing for this). Or models in fetish pornography, though that's more for my own personal satisfaction.
Male escorts is a growing trend. Google that, or search "majestic escorts". As is the growing trend in women paying for sex.
But really, my life ambition is to be nothing more than an glorified sex object. All the girls I will have been with is what's going to prepare me for this path. My confidence building, my bodybuilding, all leading towards this.
Absolution, Deliverance, Vindication. To be a wanted sex object by being a sex worker is my ABSOLUTION? How? It absolves my sadness and worthlessness. People will pay $$ to f*ck you, you're worth something!!
It grants me DELIVERANCE from my past. How? No longer will I be that lone skinny asian skulking in the corner trying to avoid being mocked by his peers. No longer that awkward guy in the bar. Everything I will have done to prepare in being an escort will pave a new future and burn the past.
And there can be no greater VINDICATION in life from going from once when you were that pathetic and weak teenager weeping because the only girl you liked but never liked you back moved away from having white women (I have a problem with my ethnicity, said that already) to pay you $$ for sexual and other services because you are physically fit and by then feeling golden.
Commentary. 1) This is not a troll post, I am deadly serious. Things have been in motion since last year.
2) Sorry for the rambling style, I need to sleep soon, lectures tomorrow
3) It's obvious that honeysuckle's happened in my life, this path was not choosen flippantly
4) Everyone here presumably have a plan on beating their current predicament. This is mine, and I hope you respect that.
5) I trust that at the very least, you've read something novel and rethink your path forward.
Thank you for reading.
