Hello everyone. I haven't posted anything in these forums in years. I am actually shocked my account still exists to be honest!
I am incredibly frustrated by life lately. I am incredibly lonely.
I am a 36 year old male. I'm 6'2". I'm in decent shape. I have been losing a lot of weight lately with life style changes. I've lost 30 pounds in 2 months. I have a wonderful job. I make $115,000 a year and I have my own apartment.
I have good habits. I keep my apartment very tidy. I'm not very materialistic, so I don't have much clutter and I keep things very neat and I max out my 401k every year. I am going to retire in my late 50's.
I live in the south east, in Georgia. I am an atheist, and a socialist / liberal. I find myself rather intelligent and good looking. I am funny, or at least my friends and family think I am.
However, dating sucks. I broke up with my fiancé in 2021, and it has been rough out there. I feel like all of the women I meet are unreasonable, shallow, and impatient. I come from a very down to earth, laid back family. I also have very sensible ideals about things and I am very reasonable person. As long as people don't lie, and have valid reasons for things, I don't get very upset at things.
I have narcolepsy and it severely impacts my life, though. I feel like NO ONE has any empathy anymore, and this sense of "my feelings are valid" is being taken WAY TOO FAR in society nowadays.
I recently went on a date that left me feeling incredibly frustrated. I finally met someone who was funny and articulate and very smart. She was liberal and an atheist. We went on a few dates and had a wonderful time. I work rotating shifts at my job and it leaves me INCREDIBLY exhausted. I was sleep deprived all week between work and hanging out with her.
I explained to her that I have narcolepsy. I was very clear about it. She laughed it off, but I warned her that it wasn't a joke.
I got off night shift this morning, and we talked before she went to work. She told me she was going to try to leave work early, and would text me. I was preparing to go to bed and offered to set an alarm for 2 PM. She specifically told me NOT to set an alarm, and to get my beauty rest because she had an "adventure" planned for us later in the evening. I was excited. So I went to bed.
Well, I went did some laundry and went to bed at 10:30. Next thing I know, I'm waking up at 9:30 PM!!! I slept for 11 hours STRAIGHT. Without waking up ONE TIME. Not even to pee! I had like 30 unread texts from her! She was very upset and accused me of not caring constantly, told me I was not validating her feelings, that she couldn't do this and that I wasn't loyal or committed and that I didn't value the day with her.
I tried explaining a million times that I have narcolepsy and that I didn't expect to sleep for 11 hours! But no matter what I said, she called me an excuse maker, that I had a date with her and that I should have done SOMETHING to wake up, that if it mattered to me I would have done SOMETHING about it.
This is what frustrates me. I just want to meet someone who understands that honeysuckle happens in life!!! That if you oversleep, it's OKAY. It doesn't mean you are a liar! It doesn't mean you DON'T CARE. I even told her that I sleep through my alarms CONSTANTLY. But it all fell on deaf ears, and she blocked me. This feels SO unfair. I am an incredibly caring, committed, loyal person, and I got treated like I was a piece of honeysuckle that was lying. I was looking forward to this weekend SO MUCH, and I'm just as pissed at my disability as she is.
Why does everyone do this? My dad was abusive growing up and constantly told me that there is "no such things as accidents". This is a fallacy and a bullshit mentality. The secret of life is that there is very little we can actually control, and if you think you can prevent ALL bad things from happening, you ARE DELUSIONAL!!! honeysuckle HAPPENS IN LIFE.
The best laid plans of mice and men often go awry! I'm just sick of being punished for something I literally have NO CONTROL OVER.
I am incredibly frustrated by life lately. I am incredibly lonely.
I am a 36 year old male. I'm 6'2". I'm in decent shape. I have been losing a lot of weight lately with life style changes. I've lost 30 pounds in 2 months. I have a wonderful job. I make $115,000 a year and I have my own apartment.
I have good habits. I keep my apartment very tidy. I'm not very materialistic, so I don't have much clutter and I keep things very neat and I max out my 401k every year. I am going to retire in my late 50's.
I live in the south east, in Georgia. I am an atheist, and a socialist / liberal. I find myself rather intelligent and good looking. I am funny, or at least my friends and family think I am.
However, dating sucks. I broke up with my fiancé in 2021, and it has been rough out there. I feel like all of the women I meet are unreasonable, shallow, and impatient. I come from a very down to earth, laid back family. I also have very sensible ideals about things and I am very reasonable person. As long as people don't lie, and have valid reasons for things, I don't get very upset at things.
I have narcolepsy and it severely impacts my life, though. I feel like NO ONE has any empathy anymore, and this sense of "my feelings are valid" is being taken WAY TOO FAR in society nowadays.
I recently went on a date that left me feeling incredibly frustrated. I finally met someone who was funny and articulate and very smart. She was liberal and an atheist. We went on a few dates and had a wonderful time. I work rotating shifts at my job and it leaves me INCREDIBLY exhausted. I was sleep deprived all week between work and hanging out with her.
I explained to her that I have narcolepsy. I was very clear about it. She laughed it off, but I warned her that it wasn't a joke.
I got off night shift this morning, and we talked before she went to work. She told me she was going to try to leave work early, and would text me. I was preparing to go to bed and offered to set an alarm for 2 PM. She specifically told me NOT to set an alarm, and to get my beauty rest because she had an "adventure" planned for us later in the evening. I was excited. So I went to bed.
Well, I went did some laundry and went to bed at 10:30. Next thing I know, I'm waking up at 9:30 PM!!! I slept for 11 hours STRAIGHT. Without waking up ONE TIME. Not even to pee! I had like 30 unread texts from her! She was very upset and accused me of not caring constantly, told me I was not validating her feelings, that she couldn't do this and that I wasn't loyal or committed and that I didn't value the day with her.
I tried explaining a million times that I have narcolepsy and that I didn't expect to sleep for 11 hours! But no matter what I said, she called me an excuse maker, that I had a date with her and that I should have done SOMETHING to wake up, that if it mattered to me I would have done SOMETHING about it.
This is what frustrates me. I just want to meet someone who understands that honeysuckle happens in life!!! That if you oversleep, it's OKAY. It doesn't mean you are a liar! It doesn't mean you DON'T CARE. I even told her that I sleep through my alarms CONSTANTLY. But it all fell on deaf ears, and she blocked me. This feels SO unfair. I am an incredibly caring, committed, loyal person, and I got treated like I was a piece of honeysuckle that was lying. I was looking forward to this weekend SO MUCH, and I'm just as pissed at my disability as she is.
Why does everyone do this? My dad was abusive growing up and constantly told me that there is "no such things as accidents". This is a fallacy and a bullshit mentality. The secret of life is that there is very little we can actually control, and if you think you can prevent ALL bad things from happening, you ARE DELUSIONAL!!! honeysuckle HAPPENS IN LIFE.
The best laid plans of mice and men often go awry! I'm just sick of being punished for something I literally have NO CONTROL OVER.
