Niantiel
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Normally, I keep my apartment pretty clean so it doesn't run away and build up into a monster that I've gotta take a weekend off of enjoying myself to clean....but lately, the last few weeks, I haven't had the motivation to....
No one's ever here besides me.
I have a roommate, but she's never around.
The few friends that I DO have, I spend my time at their house, usually.
I've blown a very large portion of my savings, and I'm developing a bit of an out of control spending problem because I can't seem to make myself happy...
I've slipped back into daily drinking....
I'd rather smoke pot, in all honesty, but I'd rather not risk losing my job because of it.
I had a beautiful LSD trip a few nights ago that made me feel so at home and so peaceful....but, that feeling wears off after like 3 or 4 days, and at any rate you can't use it in that frequency....
I spent time at my family's for father's day, and I took notice that basically no one in my family besides me, knows how to take initiative, besides my grandfather. My dad kinda does what he wants to do, mom settles with things, and my sister....just fights with everyone until they give in....
My birthday's in 8 days...
I've spent the entire month dreading turning 27...heheheh...because, well, what happens to all musician's when they're 27??
I'm starting to really think that I can't beat this. It's like nothing lasts long enough.
The drugs don't last long enough, the paychecks don't last long enough, the time with friends don't last long enough, my artistic and spiritual influences don't last long enough, and eventually it just comes back again and nullifies everything
Really, I have no motivation to do anything besides drink, listen to music, and play video games....
and when I DO get motivation to do the things that I need to do, I'm not home because I'm at work. -_-
No one's ever here besides me.
I have a roommate, but she's never around.
The few friends that I DO have, I spend my time at their house, usually.
I've blown a very large portion of my savings, and I'm developing a bit of an out of control spending problem because I can't seem to make myself happy...
I've slipped back into daily drinking....
I'd rather smoke pot, in all honesty, but I'd rather not risk losing my job because of it.
I had a beautiful LSD trip a few nights ago that made me feel so at home and so peaceful....but, that feeling wears off after like 3 or 4 days, and at any rate you can't use it in that frequency....
I spent time at my family's for father's day, and I took notice that basically no one in my family besides me, knows how to take initiative, besides my grandfather. My dad kinda does what he wants to do, mom settles with things, and my sister....just fights with everyone until they give in....
My birthday's in 8 days...
I've spent the entire month dreading turning 27...heheheh...because, well, what happens to all musician's when they're 27??
I'm starting to really think that I can't beat this. It's like nothing lasts long enough.
The drugs don't last long enough, the paychecks don't last long enough, the time with friends don't last long enough, my artistic and spiritual influences don't last long enough, and eventually it just comes back again and nullifies everything
Really, I have no motivation to do anything besides drink, listen to music, and play video games....
and when I DO get motivation to do the things that I need to do, I'm not home because I'm at work. -_-