Freakin_Amazin
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After my first breakup, I met a really nice girl who liked me alot. She would do all these things for me... One time she even baked me a cake for St. Valentine's, in the form of lips. She was after me for about a year and a half, but I could never bring myself to fall for her. I acted badly towards her sometimes, I wouldn't pay attention, things of that sort. I don't know why anymore... I must've been blind. After awhile we stopped seeing or calling each other.
I had another relationship, and I just broke up. I have suddenly realized that there is no other girl like her, and now, I want to make it work. But there is more than enough pain in her heart, I know that, I know it won't be easy. I'm having a really hard time living with myself, knowing now what I had and spurned. I had gold... it's as simple as that. Now I've got nothing, no one.
I really don't know how I'm going to live with myself if I can't make this work. I'm talking to her, going to her house on occasion; she's reluctant, and a little distanced, which is understandable. But I just feel completely depressed, frustrated, emanciated. For the first time in my life I am sure of who I want... but the chances of this working aren't that great, not after what happened, not after all the time that has passed. I feel like I have wasted that which I would most like to have - I don't mind where I study or where I work or anything like that, I just want to have someone like her. And she's the only one I know. No one else even comes close.
I feel so lonely now. I wouldn't mind getting the crap beat out of me - I feel like I deserve it.
I had another relationship, and I just broke up. I have suddenly realized that there is no other girl like her, and now, I want to make it work. But there is more than enough pain in her heart, I know that, I know it won't be easy. I'm having a really hard time living with myself, knowing now what I had and spurned. I had gold... it's as simple as that. Now I've got nothing, no one.
I really don't know how I'm going to live with myself if I can't make this work. I'm talking to her, going to her house on occasion; she's reluctant, and a little distanced, which is understandable. But I just feel completely depressed, frustrated, emanciated. For the first time in my life I am sure of who I want... but the chances of this working aren't that great, not after what happened, not after all the time that has passed. I feel like I have wasted that which I would most like to have - I don't mind where I study or where I work or anything like that, I just want to have someone like her. And she's the only one I know. No one else even comes close.
I feel so lonely now. I wouldn't mind getting the crap beat out of me - I feel like I deserve it.