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kurandera
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It's a rainy Wednesday afternoon and as cliche as it may sound I'm down with the dumps again.Which is pretty silly really considering I'm relatively normal.(I've got friends,I have nice family etc.)
The thing is,I've always been surrounded by people who never know me.For almost 20 yrs. I've struggled to make them somehow understand who I am.I tried being a friend,daughter,a part time lover,hell,how about a shrink but no one seems to cut close.As pathetic as this sounds but I talk to my pillow because it comforts me better than any of my companions do.Crazy isn't it?
I am not alone but I'm lonely..(which amounts to the same thing)
My lil sis tells me it's just my unused ovaries talking.lol(sigh)
Suddenly I'm singing along Elton John's "I want love" song.Except change the man part to woman.
Right..
I've read a forum here with one person telling everyone here to get out to beat loneliness.it must be nice to be able to fake feelings.I don't want to live my life like that.But I'm doing it because i have no choice.(or rather I have..dunno)
Tell me what you all think,I'm free to suggestions even hilarious ones,I'm that desperate.
Good day
[One may think we're alright but we need pills to sleep at night,we need lies to make it through the day,we're not okay-Pills,The Perishers]
The thing is,I've always been surrounded by people who never know me.For almost 20 yrs. I've struggled to make them somehow understand who I am.I tried being a friend,daughter,a part time lover,hell,how about a shrink but no one seems to cut close.As pathetic as this sounds but I talk to my pillow because it comforts me better than any of my companions do.Crazy isn't it?
I am not alone but I'm lonely..(which amounts to the same thing)
My lil sis tells me it's just my unused ovaries talking.lol(sigh)
Suddenly I'm singing along Elton John's "I want love" song.Except change the man part to woman.
Right..
I've read a forum here with one person telling everyone here to get out to beat loneliness.it must be nice to be able to fake feelings.I don't want to live my life like that.But I'm doing it because i have no choice.(or rather I have..dunno)
Tell me what you all think,I'm free to suggestions even hilarious ones,I'm that desperate.
Good day
[One may think we're alright but we need pills to sleep at night,we need lies to make it through the day,we're not okay-Pills,The Perishers]