*Sammy*
Well-known member
I really sometimes wish i could just be happy to be alone. From my life experience i have been hurt more times then i wish to count and i find it very hard to trust people around me because of it.
In truth most of the time i prefer being alone without the complication of other people but i find there are those times when the social need peeks its head and these are moments i really hate.
Don't get me wrong i am not saying i do not enjoy contact with people via things such as this forum for example I have always felt more comfortable talking to people online then face to face.
What i mean is those moments when i am sitting at home alone and my mind says 'right i want you to find a friend to go out and have a coffee with or something'. I don't have any friends like that. Most people i know live miles and miles away and its those moments i hate so much.
I'm sorry i am rambling and i don't really know what point it is i am trying to make just wanted to vent some feelings i guess.
Although i do have one question.
If you had the choice to remove the 'lonely' gene from your brain would you? Now i'm not saying you wouldn't be able to enjoy love or company for other people but just that if you choose to sit at home and not want to see anyone for days, weeks, months... in the end that loneliness wouldn't come and creep up on you like a hit from a truck?
In truth most of the time i prefer being alone without the complication of other people but i find there are those times when the social need peeks its head and these are moments i really hate.
Don't get me wrong i am not saying i do not enjoy contact with people via things such as this forum for example I have always felt more comfortable talking to people online then face to face.
What i mean is those moments when i am sitting at home alone and my mind says 'right i want you to find a friend to go out and have a coffee with or something'. I don't have any friends like that. Most people i know live miles and miles away and its those moments i hate so much.
I'm sorry i am rambling and i don't really know what point it is i am trying to make just wanted to vent some feelings i guess.
Although i do have one question.
If you had the choice to remove the 'lonely' gene from your brain would you? Now i'm not saying you wouldn't be able to enjoy love or company for other people but just that if you choose to sit at home and not want to see anyone for days, weeks, months... in the end that loneliness wouldn't come and creep up on you like a hit from a truck?