SomeoneSomewhere
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I have been trying really hard to post this since yesterday but for some reason, I type it out, delete it, type it out, delete it. So I've typed this post about 5 different times before finally gathering the courage to hit "Post Thread".
I had some friends in school and I try really hard to stay away from them. But once in a while, I just can't resist the temptation and end up visiting their facebook profiles, just to check out what's happening (pictures tell a lot about people), where they are at in their lives, etc.
This is about this one particular friend. He was one of my best friends (I practically considered him a brother) and one of my strongest rivals. Competing with him and bettering over him was one of my strongest motivations back then.
Long story short, I failed miserably and I bailed like a coward, letting him win. He was still a good friend but he would turn a little obnoxious and condescending at times (immaturity, maybe?).
After much "No I shouldn't do this" and "Remember how shitty you felt when you last did this", I visited his profile yesterday. Everything has turned out so amazing for him. He now has a job, has a beautiful-loving girlfriend, has an awesome group of friends, looks great and everything!
While I'm happy for him and for the fact that his life turned out so great, thinking at the stage that I'm in right now, it makes me sick right down to my stomach. I mean, last night I couldn't even eat properly. Yes, I'm a little jealous but jealously is only a little part of what I'm feeling right now.
I just wanted to share this and get it off my chest because you guys are the only ones in this whole world I can talk to (I know I sound cold, cruel and distant at times but this is my way of "throwing" a compliment). Thanks for listening. Thoughts?
I had some friends in school and I try really hard to stay away from them. But once in a while, I just can't resist the temptation and end up visiting their facebook profiles, just to check out what's happening (pictures tell a lot about people), where they are at in their lives, etc.
This is about this one particular friend. He was one of my best friends (I practically considered him a brother) and one of my strongest rivals. Competing with him and bettering over him was one of my strongest motivations back then.
Long story short, I failed miserably and I bailed like a coward, letting him win. He was still a good friend but he would turn a little obnoxious and condescending at times (immaturity, maybe?).
After much "No I shouldn't do this" and "Remember how shitty you felt when you last did this", I visited his profile yesterday. Everything has turned out so amazing for him. He now has a job, has a beautiful-loving girlfriend, has an awesome group of friends, looks great and everything!
While I'm happy for him and for the fact that his life turned out so great, thinking at the stage that I'm in right now, it makes me sick right down to my stomach. I mean, last night I couldn't even eat properly. Yes, I'm a little jealous but jealously is only a little part of what I'm feeling right now.
I just wanted to share this and get it off my chest because you guys are the only ones in this whole world I can talk to (I know I sound cold, cruel and distant at times but this is my way of "throwing" a compliment). Thanks for listening. Thoughts?