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The Red Queen
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I'm a 21 year old female and I realized the other day that none of the people I ever considered friends cared anywhere near as much as I did about the friendship. I was always the shoulder to cry on when someone broke up with a girlfriend/boyfriend. I was always there to talk when people were having problems with family, other friends, etc. But when I needed that same support there was no one to be found. They'd put in the allotted awwwws, and poor yous, and then they'd be gone and wouldn't answer the phone. I saw people I considered my best friends going over to another of our friend's house when they had a hangnail and comfort them (okay, that's an exaggeration but it was little things like that) and when I had a crushing break up they were always too busy. It feels like no one respects me and only invite me out cause I'm good at entertaining at a party. It seems like no one even cares to get to know me any deeper than the surface or for any other reason then to provide entertainment. Nobody ever seems to want to make the effort to get to know who I am. Everytime I start to open up to someone they somehow betray me or hurt me. It's really affected all my friendships and relationships to date. I get paranoid so easily that people are out to play games with me and lie to me and I end up pushing people away or being completely untrustful of seemingly genuine interest. I know that there's something wrong in my head or something...I'm just wondering if anyone feels the same. I'm so lonely and I just want someone who cares about me really and will talk to me.
Bri
PS
I'm sorry if I sound like a raving lunatic but I don't know what to do anymore...
Bri
PS
I'm sorry if I sound like a raving lunatic but I don't know what to do anymore...