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lonelyloser
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I wonder what it would be like to have parents who actually liked each other. My whole life I have just been in the middle of my parents trying to kill each other. Is there any question as to why I have a personality disorder? I was never really taught how to act properly and just acted like everything was ok when I was around people in school and social functions when in fact I was falling apart. I don't really understand what is the point of having children if you are in a bad marriage and you know your children are never going to be happy. Maybe my parents had me in order to get back at the world for giving them bad lives. Since they couldn't make other people suffer, they could bring someone into the world and make him suffer for many years. Haha, what a great way to let out that anger!
So whatever, I was screwed from the beginning. But I really hate myself for the fact that I have taken this out on other people who did not deserve it. The one girl who showed affection to me in my life, I pushed her away and called her a *****. She was there for me in so many ways and I will never EVER meet anyone like her again. The truth is she's far from being a ***** and she's much more of a human than I can ever wish to be. Excuse me I think I'm going to go slit my wrists now.
So whatever, I was screwed from the beginning. But I really hate myself for the fact that I have taken this out on other people who did not deserve it. The one girl who showed affection to me in my life, I pushed her away and called her a *****. She was there for me in so many ways and I will never EVER meet anyone like her again. The truth is she's far from being a ***** and she's much more of a human than I can ever wish to be. Excuse me I think I'm going to go slit my wrists now.