constant stranger
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I'm 62 and I've been living with my mother for the fourteen years since Dad died. May the self righteous, holier than thou, condescending epitome of hypocrisy receive his just rewards begging for mercy in hell.
I walked in on a suicide gesture when I was 5....Mom was out on a ledge and Dad was absent....legitimately, I grant....but absent nevertheless. The 2 older brothers were in hiding.
Nice, eh?
That pattern just kept on repeating itself, over and over, not quite so melodramatically as being 9 floors above the hard pavement though.
It was Mom's and my secret.....for the rest of our lives. and I've been the caregiver and helpmate of a family that's barely been functional all these decades. Doing what Dad should have done, though I admit he did pursue his corporate career pretty well.....his hobbies too.
And he despised me for it......
I'm always going to wonder: If Mom jumped instead of tumbling back to my beckoning 5 year old self, would it have been a better life?
And if I'd pursued the career I wanted after college instead of coming back to help after Mom's heart attack, would it have been a better life?
I'll never know now, will I?
I walked in on a suicide gesture when I was 5....Mom was out on a ledge and Dad was absent....legitimately, I grant....but absent nevertheless. The 2 older brothers were in hiding.
Nice, eh?
That pattern just kept on repeating itself, over and over, not quite so melodramatically as being 9 floors above the hard pavement though.
It was Mom's and my secret.....for the rest of our lives. and I've been the caregiver and helpmate of a family that's barely been functional all these decades. Doing what Dad should have done, though I admit he did pursue his corporate career pretty well.....his hobbies too.
And he despised me for it......
I'm always going to wonder: If Mom jumped instead of tumbling back to my beckoning 5 year old self, would it have been a better life?
And if I'd pursued the career I wanted after college instead of coming back to help after Mom's heart attack, would it have been a better life?
I'll never know now, will I?