..in the still of the night..

[beingnobody]

"Darkness is falling, time slippin' away," midnight commin' to sweep this year away. It's been a long, long time since I shared New Year in the company or presence of another human being.
Familiar loneliness.greeting harsh. Forbidding..
My choice, solitude, this way. No weeping..
This time
Anyway I guess.
This time silence rings a hollow bell
Unheard
Unwanted,..unwelcome
No TV. No New Year Special
No musical disruption to reality too
No bitter pill to swallow
Choking the pain.
This time no hiding away.
Just me, alone
As always
Not unafraid,
Sorry not
It hurts
Discarded
Forgotten
So it seems
Familiar, welcome
Numbness
My only solice knowing
Not alone.
Out there in the void
In the emptiness
Of a cold and deadened realm
Brethren in suffering
Share my pain