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I miss my mother. At the same time, I am angry that she left me here. I get angry with myself for being so selfish. Then I feel guilty. I should have done something more to keep her alive, for her to want to live and be healthy.
My efforts weren't enough. All of the times she admitted she didn't want to be here anymore, and that she said I would be "just fine without her". I am not "fine", I still need her here. Why didn't my existence alone persuade her to turn away from her drugs or get her to help for herself. Why am I not enough?
There are still things that I didn't get a chance to learn from her and share with her. Maybe there were chances all along and it's my fault for not taking advantage of them.
My grandmother is getting older and says she is tired of taking care of people. I am just another financial burden that was thrown into her lap when my mother passed.
My half-sister doesn't call me. She wants nothing to do with me unless she wants something.
I feel so alone. I am writing this here because I am tired of burdening my boyfriend with all of my emotional baggage. Beginning to think that maybe all I have become towards my loved ones, a burden.
If anyone would like to, feel free to post from your own experiences.
My efforts weren't enough. All of the times she admitted she didn't want to be here anymore, and that she said I would be "just fine without her". I am not "fine", I still need her here. Why didn't my existence alone persuade her to turn away from her drugs or get her to help for herself. Why am I not enough?
There are still things that I didn't get a chance to learn from her and share with her. Maybe there were chances all along and it's my fault for not taking advantage of them.
My grandmother is getting older and says she is tired of taking care of people. I am just another financial burden that was thrown into her lap when my mother passed.
My half-sister doesn't call me. She wants nothing to do with me unless she wants something.
I feel so alone. I am writing this here because I am tired of burdening my boyfriend with all of my emotional baggage. Beginning to think that maybe all I have become towards my loved ones, a burden.
If anyone would like to, feel free to post from your own experiences.