Hey guys.
I won't delve into the details, but I basically ended up cutting off all contact with a lot of my friends and family over the course of the past few years. Even though I still live with my family, because they have done really horrible things to me in the past, it feels like I'm receding into my own mind.
I only live in my mind. In my mind, and my journals. It's soul-sucking to not be able to share my life, my thoughts, emotions, with anyone. It absolutely sucks to not be able to know someone else in that way as well. I am so unfulfilled in this part of my life.
I literally have no one in my life who truly and fully understands me, and I have no one in my life who I truly and fully understand.
All my actions feel hollow. It feels like nothing I do is being reflected by anyone around me, and that makes me feel like I'm going crazy sometimes.
I guess I have only myself to blame - I've been extremely career oriented for the past 2 years, trying to get myself out of my parents' house (which looks like it is going to come true by the end of 2014).
Wish I had someone to talk to...not about the small talk bullshit that everyone talks about daily, but about the deep stuff. The stuff that makes us tick, so to speak.
I don't know, maybe I'm looking for someone who resonates on my frequency.
Anyway, thanks for hearing me out.
I won't delve into the details, but I basically ended up cutting off all contact with a lot of my friends and family over the course of the past few years. Even though I still live with my family, because they have done really horrible things to me in the past, it feels like I'm receding into my own mind.
I only live in my mind. In my mind, and my journals. It's soul-sucking to not be able to share my life, my thoughts, emotions, with anyone. It absolutely sucks to not be able to know someone else in that way as well. I am so unfulfilled in this part of my life.
I literally have no one in my life who truly and fully understands me, and I have no one in my life who I truly and fully understand.
All my actions feel hollow. It feels like nothing I do is being reflected by anyone around me, and that makes me feel like I'm going crazy sometimes.
I guess I have only myself to blame - I've been extremely career oriented for the past 2 years, trying to get myself out of my parents' house (which looks like it is going to come true by the end of 2014).
Wish I had someone to talk to...not about the small talk bullshit that everyone talks about daily, but about the deep stuff. The stuff that makes us tick, so to speak.
I don't know, maybe I'm looking for someone who resonates on my frequency.
Anyway, thanks for hearing me out.