Hi Everyone,
I am 57 years old and my life the past 4 years has changed drastically. I have fibromyalgia and spinal stenosis for the past 8 years. I am in pain almost everyday which pretty much prevents me from doing the things I used to do and that in turn has prevented me from making friends. My husband left me 4 years ago mainly because of my illness. You see it was very hard to have sexual relations with him due to the illness. It was devasting to me when he left and I was at my worst. I have family here but they do not understand this illness and neither did my daughter at the time. What is hard is we have a business together so we still have to be work together which was impossible at the beginning. But as the years went by I have learned to except the fact that he is not coming back to me and now we are at least friends. I do most of the work for our store at home while he runs the store. When I am physically up to it I go into the store to get out of the house.
I originally come from New York and we moved to Florida when my husband lost his job. This took me away from all the friends I had and at the beginning I had to help start up the business so I was working 24/7 for 2 years. Then I got sick with the Fibro and all things changed. Never made any friends here in Florida. My sister and parents live here but I am not close to my sister and I lost my mother last year. My father is now remarried which I was not happy about since he met this woman soon after my mother died and decided to marry her right away. This woman I feel has changed him and he is not close to his family anymore. She made it clear that she wanted to marry him for security reasons.
So I am home most of the time alone except for my 3 dachshunds which are my salvation. They are the reasons I get up every morning. I also just found out I am going to be a grandma but I worry whether I will be able to help take care of he/she when the time comes. I am tired of feeling ill and not being able to get out. I so would like to meet someone but who will want a sick person who cannot be sexually active. I am so afraid of being alone the rest of my life and it scares me.
I am 57 years old and my life the past 4 years has changed drastically. I have fibromyalgia and spinal stenosis for the past 8 years. I am in pain almost everyday which pretty much prevents me from doing the things I used to do and that in turn has prevented me from making friends. My husband left me 4 years ago mainly because of my illness. You see it was very hard to have sexual relations with him due to the illness. It was devasting to me when he left and I was at my worst. I have family here but they do not understand this illness and neither did my daughter at the time. What is hard is we have a business together so we still have to be work together which was impossible at the beginning. But as the years went by I have learned to except the fact that he is not coming back to me and now we are at least friends. I do most of the work for our store at home while he runs the store. When I am physically up to it I go into the store to get out of the house.
I originally come from New York and we moved to Florida when my husband lost his job. This took me away from all the friends I had and at the beginning I had to help start up the business so I was working 24/7 for 2 years. Then I got sick with the Fibro and all things changed. Never made any friends here in Florida. My sister and parents live here but I am not close to my sister and I lost my mother last year. My father is now remarried which I was not happy about since he met this woman soon after my mother died and decided to marry her right away. This woman I feel has changed him and he is not close to his family anymore. She made it clear that she wanted to marry him for security reasons.
So I am home most of the time alone except for my 3 dachshunds which are my salvation. They are the reasons I get up every morning. I also just found out I am going to be a grandma but I worry whether I will be able to help take care of he/she when the time comes. I am tired of feeling ill and not being able to get out. I so would like to meet someone but who will want a sick person who cannot be sexually active. I am so afraid of being alone the rest of my life and it scares me.
